5SOS posted on IG — Feb. 26th, 2014

Michael with fans — Feb. 26th, 2014

Calum and Ashton with fans — Feb. 26th, 2014

Ashton & 5SOS posted on Twitter — Feb. 26th, 2014

You get so sick and tired of feeling like shit, being shit, shit everywhere, you get soooo fucking sick of it that you just say fuck this shit and fucking better yourself. How in the fucking world do I expect to become a fucking better person if I don’t continue to try. God all I’ve been doing is fucking complaining about shit, how shit’s not going the way I want or how shit’s just piling up and there’s nothing I can do about it. O-fucking-kay. To the shit I can change, I need to get the fuck up and change it. To the shit’s that’s inevitable, I have to let it be and get the fuck over it because it’s, fucking, in. ev. it. a. ble. God I don’t know but everything’s just been annoying me to the point where I have no energy, but at this fucking time everything’s annoying me to the point where I will force every single fucking thing to be to my liking because using force is the only fucking way to go at this point. I fucking hate how my life is going and what the fuck am I going to do? Hate it for the rest of my life? No. Fucking. Way. Fuck this fucking stupid fucking shit I’m gonna go fucking ham on my life and make it the way I want.

I’m not motivated. I’ve been skipping class. My room’s still a mess, or even worse than it was. I don’t know how to do it anymore. I think this way of living was supposed to only be temporary but because I’ve been acting this way for so long that it’s normal now. I hate it. I hate everything right now. What am I supposed to do. I can’t do anything at all. I really need to get going. I hate this.

Not a day goes by that I don't think of the "what if" I would give the world to be able to hold you atleast one time. It breaks my heart that I never even got to meet you, I know it was all in God's plan... but I still don't understand why.. I will forever miss you 💙💖 #022614 #angelmommy #mommyofanangel