#..pfft

that i don't fight for myself

that i am not capable of doing anything

that i am depressed

I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW HE IS NOT ABLE TO SEE HOW MUCH I TRY TO KEEP MY DAYS MERRIER AS POSSIBLE

I NEVER SPEAK TO HIM ABOUT MY JOYS NOR MY DREAMS BECAUSE THAT IS SOMETHING I HAVE TO DO ON MY OWN AND I KNOW BY FACT HE WILL TRY TO USE THAT AGAINST ME

I AM CONTENT WITH MY LIFE AND WITH WHO I AM BECAUSE I AM STRONG AND I ALWAYS TOOK CARE OF MYSELF

I AM GRATEFUL WITH WHAT I HAVE I AM NOT AN UNGRATEFUL AND USELESS CHILD WAITING FOR THINGS TO HAPPEN

I AM TRYING TO GO FOR WHAT I WANT BUT I WON'T RUSH ONTO THINGS LIKE AN IMBECILE

GODDAMIT 

I DON'T NEED ANY OF YOU I'VE NEVER NEEDED ANYONE NO ONE IS GOING TO STOOD FOR ME NOT EVEN MY MOTHER DID WHAT MAKES HIM THINK THAT I HAVE FAITH THAT HE WILL TAKE CARE OF ME ?! JUST BECAUSE I CRY DOES NOT MEANS I AM WEAK LIKE HE BELIEVES