#...i don't know...

Goddammit, why am I never online enough, and when I am, I always see posts too late? I just went to check Sarah's blog because I finally had the time and motivation to finish outlining and coloring a doodle she did for me for my birthday, but then I see a post marked three days ago about her possible suicide! Where is she? Is she okay? What happened? God, I feel so terrible... She always had her ups and downs and was fighting depression and I know things have gotten bad before but they've also picked back up during other times, and just a couple months or so ago, we went to Disney World together and I still have the Rainbow Loom bracelets she made for me and--