#- dabs

Specifically about source separation and how it affects my identity as a fictive.

When I first arrived in system, I was extremely attached to my source. When I saw myself on the screen, or any sort of media about myself, it was easy to apply it as me. I'd talk to other MHA fictionfolk, and they'd treat me in a similar way, or, expected me to be like source. In some ways, I was, in other ways, I wasn't. It was just me, and however that presented itself.

And it's still me. I still look the same, have the same past, and when I come across media of myself, I still think of it as me. But it's also grown from that.

I think source separation for me happened gradually. I started meeting new people, I started building a new identity for myself outside of my past as a villain and my revenge, and I thought of this new life as something to breathe in. A new start, I guess. So that's what I did.

And it's been 8 years since then. And when someone says "Dabi is the worst character in MHA" I think to myself, fucking dick. Because that's still me, but I've also changed since what you've seen on screen. And you don't know me, and you don't know the life I've built for myself since then.

8 years is a lot of time to self reflect. And because of that, I realized, yeah, I'm that villain on TV, sure, but I don't want to be treated that way anymore. I'm just a guy. Almost 30 now, and I love simple shit. I love cleaning and tidying up, listening to music, spending time with my partners, and reflecting on how much things have changed for me since I got here. I don't spend my time so fucking obsessed with my family and father.

That was my past. It was my entire life. But not anymore. Growing from my source isn't a bad thing for me. It just means I'm living a good life, the one I never got to live before.

4. Who has the coolest name in your opinion?

5. What's your favorite thing about your source?

I just looked through the questions on the ask game. They are things my system and other headmates have discussed with you before, that's interesting. :)

4. Who has the coolest name in your opinion?

Let's see.. source wise? I'm probably a bit biased, but I like Hawks as a hero name. I'm not a fan of heroes, personally, but it suits his quirk and what he does.

5. What's your favorite thing about your source?

Hm, well, I liked the direction it seemed to be going when the manga was halfway through the series. It seemed like they were going to demolish the hero charts, save the villains, and handle the todoroki family situation a little better.

Unfortunately, none of that actually happened.

So, my favorite thing about my source is talking with other people about how it could have been handled more delicately. Or, just the fact my source even exists in the first place.

Thanks for the asks, Damien.

9: “what’s a quote or lyric that reminds you of yourself?”

14: “what’s your favorite song?”

1: “are there any in-sys friend groups that wouldn’t happen in canon but makes sense to you?”

Technically speaking, most of our friend groups in system aren't like source at all, based on the fact they never interacted with each other in source or they were hostile towards each other in source. Tenko and Keigo are queerplatonic, and they're a part of the friend group I reside in.

9: “what’s a quote or lyric that reminds you of yourself?”

My personal blog is full of quotes, mostly relating to grief or mental health. If I had to pick a lyric, though, something simple like "I love you, I'm trying" by Grandson.

14: “what’s your favorite song?”

I have..several favourite songs. It's hard to choose.

Anything by grandson is generally a safe bet. I love his music and he's my favourite artist.

Thanks for the asks.