Colin’s religious trauma is such an interesting part of his character. I genuinely believe he doesn’t believing god because of the HC I made where his died in the line of duty and it pissed me off they didn’t play on it more.
It’s not that he hates God and refuses His existence, it’s that he hates that God didn’t do the one thing he asked Him to do, protect his dad and bring him home. It’s the subjective; he doesn’t pray because what did pray gain him? He lost his dad. He only does it to pacify his mom.
But then the objective truths he cant ignore, there are people who’ve survived the impossible and they happened to be praying at the time too…. All of the signs and roads that lead to even the smallest proofs that Jesus Christ is real, and God is real.
It’s never been about him not believing it’s about him having a horrific relationship with Him because how can all of these bad things happen to all of these good people…. And how could He not listen to the one single prayer to bring Colin’s dad home?
He doesn’t doubt God’s existence he just wonders what he did wrong to be ignored..,,
