hmm kind of want a childhood toxic best friends au where they're in love with each other and completely clueless about their own feelings and ilya keeps "stealing" girls shane says he's interested in by sleeping with them first.
and when shane finally does get a girlfriend when they're like eighteen, ilya seduces and fucks her. he thinks about shane the entire time and is absolutely furious with himself about it. he casually tells shane about it like a week later because as angry as he is at himself for doing something so terrible, he's equally angry at shane for making him feel this way and it makes him want to be cruel.
shane confronts his girlfriend about it and as she's tearfully apologizing to him, all he can think about is how jealous is of her. and he kind of wants to ask her what it felt like, getting fucked by ilya, and of course he hates himself so much for it that when she asks him to forgive her and take her back he says yes, just to punish all three of them.
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Sylus is blowing your back out when he sees your bfs caller id pop up on your phone on his nightstand and goes "oh its your little boyfriend you should answer so he doesnt get suspicious" and then proceeds to pound you into his feather mattress and watch you hide your sounds in his silk pillowcases with his bruises on your neck and chest knowing that your shitty boyfriend could never be as good as him
cheating cw, 18+. minors and antis dni
you know, when sylus realizes you're taken by a man so much lesser than him, his first reaction is a disbelieving kind of anger. he can tell you don't want to leave the man who so obviously mistreats you, and he can understand it because he adores you. he adores your bleeding heart, really.
but he doesn't care that you're guilty, at least not enough to not push you into starting the affair. he operates best in that careful way. and you're so unloved there that it doesn't really take him any meaningful effort to coax you closer to him.
he just figures he'll break you in for it first. make you feel good. be sweet on you, swipe his card for you, cup your throat while you get fucked on your back until your eyes roll up into the ceiling and your legs are half trembling on his shoulders and then talk you through it. see how good you can feel. see how good i can make you feel? over and over until you're too far gone to do anything but agree
he takes a genuine pleasure in watching you falter. you're so guilty at first aren't you? it's sweet. he coos sympathy about your compassion. reminds you that he's just giving you what you need. and you sigh and wallow but he always coaxes you back. eases you into his arms and turns your phone off for you when your boyfriend starts calling more than once in a row.
he's usually good about not provoking your boyfriend. he doesn't care about him. someone so lesser than him doesn't deserve his ire.
but he is human enough that it grates on his nerves one day. it's in the middle of having sex, when there's so much blood pumping through him, when you're pushing yourself back on his cock because you need it and there's sweat running down your spine. and you just look so fucking good for him, feel so wet and warm and perfect around his cock that he's barely resisting the urge to hold you down and fuck you exactly like you need. he knows you need to learn to take whatever you want, so he lets you
but when he sees the familiar contact, the mocking heart next to the name of your useless boyfriend - it irritates him. more than usual. more than he usually lets it get to him.
it's not like him, really, to say something like that. you whine out the most pathetic 'no' and sylus presses a little more. why don't you wanna answer sweetheart? dont want him to find out? he should see how good you can be when you're getting fucked right, shouldn't he? hear how good you sound when you're squeezing my cock like this, hm?
he's pleased with how much it turns you on. when he tells you how good you're taking it and you clench down on him, ohhhh it makes him so fucking crazy. and worse is when you give him your answer.
i dont care, please just keep fucking me, please.
your complete and utter disregard to your partner really lifts his mood. turns him on. makes him feel a little animalistic, enough to press down on your back until you're flat on your stomach in prone so he can fuck you right. he pulls out for a minute, looks down, and his heart is still pounding hard.
whose this for sweetheart? referring to your slick cunt i won't move until you answer.
you babble half way incoherent. yours, it's all yours sylus.
and he grins in a way you rarely see, almost sharp, before he thrusts it all back in at once, a kiss to your shoulder blade. purring in his chest, an arm around your neck. good girl. don't forget now, even when i fuck all the thoughts out of you. or else we'll have to start over.
your phone keeps ringing all night but neither of you really hears it. especially not you.
Thinking about Nikto with his face buried between ur legs when he came from deployment while your bf think you’re out with girlfriends…Because you can’t leave each other alone and Nikto knows he loves and trusts you but he can’t push himself mentally to claim you untill he’s retired
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Wouldn’t happen fr cause I’ll keep waiting for him and won’t mess with someone else
he hates your boyfriend.
nikto doesn't know him. not really. but he thinks that he wouldn't mind seeing the guy dead on the ground, no longer able to move. no longer able to put his hands on you. but, nikto knows that he has no right to feel such a way. his own hands are far dirtier than that man's could ever be. he's a man that will take care of you in a way that nikto isn't sure that he ever can and he envies that.
though even nikto believes himself to be wrong for you, he can't help but seek you out every time that he is back in town, wanting you in his arms again, even if only temporarily.
he'll drink you in, embrace your warmth, and then send you back to another man at the end of the night.
nikto tries to ignore the thoughts of never truly being able to call you is.
i have a gf but can't stop thinking about guys what do i do
Aww, how cute. You're in the perfect position to be the worst girlfriend ever and turn a lesbian into a whore for men, and you're only focused on yourself. Think of how good it'll feel to kiss your girlfriend while your cunt is being filled with a thick, throbbing cock. Think of the way she'll moan into your mouth when her filthy little cunt is pumped full of thick, warm cum. Think of the hazy look in her eyes when you're both made into mommies at the same time. Think of how much you're missing out on.
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For my people who like monogamous toxicity over poly fix-its, consider: open marriage Price who's fine with bringing in thirds or seeing other people and confident it won't rock the boat, because neither he or the spouse experiences jealousy or possessiveness.
Until he starts fucking Gaz, who triggers intense enough feelings of ownership and control that suddenly he does not want to share. Suddenly he's thinking about what Gaz does when he's not around. Does he see other people? Will he meet someone else who gives him something Price can't? What if Gaz starts exclusively dating some other guy and becomes unavailable to Price? How can Price keep that from happening? What rules does he need to enforce to ensure Gaz is always at his heel?
And now it bothers him when his spouse asks about Gaz, wanting to know when/if he'll bring Gaz over. It's just that Price put so much work into getting Gaz exactly where he needed him. Instilling grown men with blind devotion isn't easy. It takes time and sacrifice. Not to mention, he risked his job and reputation to have his sergeant... why should he have to share him with someone who doesn't understand that toll? His spouse could have nearly anyone else in the world... can't Price just keep this one thing for himself?
So now he's hinding things. Now he's jealous and possessive. He can't talk about this with his spouse... So he does what he's the most comfortable with: he gets what he wants and lies about it. He tells his spouse he ended things with Gaz just so he can keep seeing him without scrutiny. He's so prideful and possessive about what he does to Gaz that he doesn't want anyone keeping tabs on that affair. It's thrilling to keep Gaz all to himself, to keep such an huge secret so well. It's probably the closest to cheating one can get in a non-monogamous marriage.
Eventually the spouse catches on though and divorces his ass. In the end, Gaz has no fucking clue how he managed to homewreck an open relationship.
Listening to a remix of Unfaithful by Blasterjaxx and now I'm thinking of cheater Nik who uses infidelity to flee emotional attachment when things get too good (traumatised detachment), and it shatters John every time.
Nik can't understand why John doesn't just leave him. Why doesn't he just ... go? Like everyone else? Why does he look at Nik like that? Demanding he be a better man? Why does he love Nik so much? How can he have the audacity to love something so broken and disgusting? How dare he, how dare he, how--
Nik on his knees begging forgiveness for the first time in his life after the final wounded look in John's face shatters him into a million pieces. John wrapping his arms around Nik's head and holding him, even as his own heart feels like it's barely beating.
Autistic aro culture is not fully understanding why people treat cheating like it should get the death penalty.
I remember when John Mulaney was caught cheating on his wife that there was a huge outrage about it, with people going as far to boycott him and, at least from what I've heard, literally wishing he was dead. Like yeah, cheating's a shitty thing to do and he really should've just talked to his wife about what problems he had in the relationship, but I've always felt like the reactions it was getting from people was incredibly extreme.
as an autistic aro who used to feel this way, the main thing is the trust and communication of boundaries. it's not about the monogamy - it's about the major, explicit/implicit boundary being broken, which begs the question of how many boundaries they are actually following. you don't know if they are telling you the truth about any boundaries they agreed to if they break a major one.
think of it as someone befriending you, being fairly aware of an nice to you about being autistic, and then learning that they send their autistic child to ABA therapy. you thought they were nice and trustworthy, but that's a hugely awful thing to learn about them. you'd be reevaluating a lot of your interactions. you'd wonder what makes you different, you'd have questions, you'd probably be pretty damn upset.
in the case of John Mulaney - iirc the intensity of the response was significantly more about the whole can of worms that came out with the news of his cheating. it seemed that he maybe had been making jokes about his wife being Jewish that she didn't like or appreciate, it seemed that he'd lied about having that consent to cultivate a public personality. it turned out he also struggled with addiction, and while I think it's inappropriate to act like that's a personality flaw, a huge amount of people do, and the public outcry was a combo of all of those coming out at once. also, he was a celebrity - people with huge amounts of fans are likely to have more extreme opinions expressed about them than the everyday person.
i have more thoughts - like how it's an everyday trauma that a lot of people have not processed, and therefore likely to promote more trauma-based reactions - but broadly, it's not about the cheating as a function of exclusive, monogamous relationships. it's about a boundary that was understood by those in a relationship being violated in ways that make you question your trust in their intentions, and how many parts of their life that lack of respect for boundaries might have been occurring.
