#(bye me)

Tenho aquele humor pessimista meio depressiativo que gera várias risadas e um suspiro no final

I PROMISE I WILL LOOK AT MY INBOX AND MY ACTIVITY BUT IM JUST THIS WEEK VERY BUSY ALSBLABSKSBD

Y'all be ready because if I catch even a GLIMPSE of Buck riding a horse I WILL die

when that cupid tells dean in 5x14 that john and mary were forced together by heaven, to continue the bloodline, like wow, the implications of that. dean’s “heterosexuality” is therefore forever compulsary, it’s something that is heaven’s wish and plan, how can he ever trust who he falls for? is it a trick played on him by a cupid? the only defying act against this is his bisexuality, his draw to men, though deeply deeply depressed. this is why defeating god is so important, why free will drives him, why the love between cas and dean is framed as the one rebellious thing that god cannot control, the crack in the chassis. it’s against heaven’s literal plan that dean is with a man because then he wouldn’t continue the bloodline with the right Heaven Approved woman, yet he grates against it, forms his own family, family don’t end in blood, oh god it’s too much