Do you think I didn’t notice? The way you look at me when you think I’m not watching? from lord john 😳
❛ i dinna ken what y' mean. ❜ jamie's answer was curt , clipped , fixing john with a hard stare through shaggy bangs as he leaned back in his seat , hands comfortably folded along his stomach. he knew the look. he saw it reflected daily in john's face , a look of absolute devotion , of a love that had only grown since ardsmuir. he knew his wasn't as glistening , as desperately hopeful , but he'd be lying to himself if he didn't acknowledge his own feelings , as complex as they were. john had given him back his life , or well , a version of it. freedom , a luxury he never thought he'd have again.
yet here he was , appearing late at night at his print shop , up to some business in town , but his first stop had to be jamie. blue eyes fall , frustrated as he stared at the well used chessboard resting between them , plucking at a stray cloth fragment at the hem of his vest , weathering it beneath his thumbnail as he chewed at his inner cheek. ❛ your move , milord. ❜ he murmured , lifting his gaze to peer at the other man through his lashes. it was easier to deflect , to hide. no half living , broken version of himself would be worthy of anybody , john gray included.
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