Ā Ā Ā daewon remembers adrenaline like an old foe. forgotten, discarded, hidden. he remembers it like something he doesnāt want to remember, or think about remember. those were the days when fear was something that shook the body and he couldnāt stop it.Ā
Ā Ā Ā he remembers it kind of like being sickly, not like being a different person. he is a different person but when this adrenaline hits itās pricking. trying to find the space where it can still coil into his body and make him fear. he shakes, from the cold more than anything, the aftermath of the chase making his breathing rugged, his body uneasy. itās why yutaeās presence isnāt distinguished. itās why yutae is still something cutting off, breaking into the fight heās having to shield his body from this regression.
Ā Ā Ā this unnecessary regression.Ā
Ā Ā Ā he fights it as he fights instincts. listens to footsteps retreat and listens to the shuffle of yutaeās body off his. he breathes. he isnāt where he is by fighting. he doesnāt get old foes by not fighting. so he breathes again and pulls at his jacket.Ā āyouāre hurt.ā if daewonās bleeding anywhere itāll go unnoticed. thatās what heās like when heās focuses and thatās what heās like when he pushes.Ā āi can move and thatās all that matters.ā the jacketās off, the tan is off and rolled into a coil. āif yours is just a flesh wound then we need to get going.ā he holds the strip out, folded and tight enough to cover yutaeās arm. heāll calculate later, but right now is all instinct, instinct, instinct.