#& work

When i was working on my gap year i had so much money... i was the richest ive ever been when i was 19 lol

I need to stop getting my hopes up about guys. Everyone tells me that he's into me. I tell them we're just friends. Apparently I'm the only one he'll come up to & talk to at the restaurant. It feels like he's flirting sometimes but when it ends up being the 2 of us just talking, he ends up telling me all about the other girls he's been with. Awesome....he says the most recent he's getting sick of & pointed out that she's gained weight. Well, she's still about half my size. So I guess that means that I'm definitely out if he cares so much about size. I tell myself that I want to lose weight & get healthy for myself but I'm actually not horribly upset with my size right now. But I do feel like I need to lose it so I can get any guys interested in me. Guys don't like fate girls. At least not any guys near me. I'm sick of me getting my hopes up that guys might like me for my personality. Fuck that. Guys only care about how hot a girl is. I'll never fit in that roll. I'll always have bigger hips & thighs. It's my body type. But guys want a girl with a tiny waist & thighs but a huge ass. Idky I'm still typing this....ugh I'm so over shit right now!

I'm All About Dedication & Determination.