Kiiind of out of nowhere, but I’ve been wanting to get this out there for a while? I’m uncertain if this shows in any of my posts or when I’ve spoken to anyone. Haven’t really mentioned this much, because I don’t want pity or get attacked by anyone saying “that’s not a real disorder you’re just fishing for attention.” No. This is to those who I speak to on a regular basis and roleplay with.
I was diagnosed with some communication block between my ears and brain. I was like 8-10 when this happened and my mom sort of refuses to give me any information on it??? All I know is it's a learning disability: I have a hard time grasping facts and have issues comprehending certain situations-- doesn't help that I over analyze things. My brain gets ticking and soon I'm off on some other completely different subject. The thoughts literally never stop. So if you ask or say something really obvious and I have no idea what you're talking about that's why. Explaining the way my mind works is the most stressful and hard thing so, that's the best I can do. I literally have no idea what this is. “A communication block between my ears and brain” is all I was told. I am very slow at learning things, I’ve always been slow at things. I wasn’t speaking until I was 3. I didn’t walk until I was 4 (granted once I stood I was running but hey.) No matter how hard I studied for subjects in school (mainly math) I would get low grades or fail. I literally spent every lunch hour and break in the math room one year for help and I still got an F. I got the Best Student of the Year award for my dedication which was a boost and a half. Buuuut still failed despite the effort. Yeah. Uh. So that’s why I ask questions to double check I heard or read something correctly. I despise the idea of making a fool of myself for missing one single detail on something-- then getting called out on it sucks more. I apologize if this comes off as irritating or annoying, I really do. End personal rant. Thank you for reading if you got this far.
