#{ouch.....}

"what should i apologize for; what i am or what i'm not?" // oh, little hero, how close are you to crumbling under the weight on your shoulders? how heavy has that heart of yours gotten? how deeply has the guilt burrowed into your bones? how permanently has the grief been seared into your soul? you were so tender, and the world so cruel. loss after loss after loss, each another chip on your shoulder. because you deserved it, didn't you? if you could be better…faster…stronger…smarter…then maybe it wouldn't have happened. right? the blood stains your hands, and it won't wash out will it? but darling, it's never been your fault. you've learned to turn the rage and the regret, the guilt and the grief, inwards. if you're hurt, it's your own fault isn't it? because then there's a reason for it, because it gives you some semblance of control, doesn't it? what you seek is forgiveness, for your perceived wrongs. but oh, little skeleton, you do not need it. stop blaming yourself for what was beyond your control. let go of the past. grow. and learn to breathe with both of your lungs. stop choking on your own self hatred. the weight will ease, i promise. i love you.

Just beat persona 2 innocent sin....

--- “Bedroom eyes..?” He chuckles. “I can assure you, my dear, that even if I did give you so-called ‘bedroom eyes’, it was unintentional.”

drawing this is actually really painful and i need to stop. (wip)

“stop that. i don’t want to hear... any of that right now.” he said through clenched teeth, looking anywhere but at her. she just broke up with him over the fact that her parents disapproved of him and saw that they had no future. “fuck that ‘maybe one day it’ll be okay’ bullshit. we were already okay! we were more than okay, aejeong!” his voice now slightly rising as he continued to speak, taking a few more steps away from her. his hand frustratedly rubbing at his eyes, urging himself to stop crying. “you’re sorry? what are you sorry about? for hurting me? for walking away? because you could have stopped this. you don’t want this at all but you’re letting it happen anyway.”

              Filth.