Feeling crazy again

Update on essentially nothing important: but I think I’ve lost all my school friends. Which isn’t a big deal, except for the fact that I still have one more year to attend school with them. Which means I’ll have to deal with seeing their annoying faces for at least another year, unless corona comes back big time and we all have to stay home. But with the rate schools are opening I sincerely doubt I’ll get lucky. Not really sure what to do about it, but it’s not like they ever cared about me to begin with so I haven’t really lost anything. Now they all just actively dislike me. I don’t plan on living much longer if I can help it, anyway. 

Anyways my chances of passing any of my classes are so low, I don’t really know how I feel about that. On one hand. I really don’t want to take summer school, but I don’t think anything is going to happen, so why not? All my summer plans have been canceled anyway. It’s going to be a very boring 3 months, I may kill myself finally. 

Imagine if I didn’t go to sleep at a reasonable time and instead spent all of my time on Stan twitter arguing with people I know are fucking stupid. Guys people are genuinely so stupid. 

You can tell I’m mentally ill bc some days I’m strangely extroverted and have a distinct personality and other days I’m a shell of a human being 

Not to brag but I’m literally going insane like 😍haven’t showered in days binged like two days ago so I feel like shit haven’t done any of the work for this making period yet it ends in like a week so that’s cool I have so much I have to do if I want to even pass one of my classes but I just don’t care anymore. About class, about people, about being alive. I’m not even sure I want to go to shoo anymore but the fact that I literally have to go one more year is seriously making me hate absolutely everything about it.  School isn’t even that bad I shouldn’t be making such a big deal about it but I just don’t care anymore and I don’t want to do any of it and I’m so behind. And with remote learning they literally can’t force me to do anything. At all.