#;diary

i’m not much of a tag poster, but i’m a little curious to see anyone else’s experiences, so here goes ^^;

i’m a fairly broke witch, AND can’t be super open about being a witch, so most of my supplies i buy from thrift stores and dollar stores. i’m sure that’s familiar to most people~ 

i’ve always heard “tools choose you!”, and accepted that as true, but... well, i’ve never known just HOW literal that can be. in a series of consecutive weeks, here’s been my piece by piece thrift store haul;

a cast iron pillar candle holder + gold candle ($3 total; that day, i was thinking of buying a gold pillar candle for my altar. i was stressed because the dollar store in town doesn’t carry them, and i was looking at an annoying amount of money to spend.)

a brass candle snuffer ($1; that week i was thinking about how i needed one for my litany of candles, and was debating ordering one off amazon.)

a brass mini-cauldron ($1; okay, so brass isn’t traditional, but i was looking down a $40 fee for a cast-iron mini cauldron and stressing out. i was using a glass bowl i hated for burning paper and herbs and REALLY wanted something that i didn’t have horrible associations with!)

a full bag of handmade rune stones?! ($2?! i don’t even divine with runes, but as soon as i saw them and held them, i KNEW i was buying them. their energy was shockingly good, and pretty much immediately called to me.)

!! Letter to !!Status: not accepting

Dear best friend, dear Sujeong, Dear Diary,

to be honest, I don’t even know where to start. You call me tsundere so many times, a term I would always deny. But If I think about it, maybe it’s not that wrong after all. You have a way of always showing the affection you feel for me, If it’s either you sending me small random messages every time of the day, or just by simply being by my side. You never fail to express the love you feel for your stupid little friend. And as you know idiot, I would usually just tell you to stop being so obsessed with me or just return it with the small abbreviation that is Ily2. But you probably don’t know that it’s actually me who needs you more than the other way around. It’s you who would stop every activity just to see or talk to me, whenever I ask to. Something I will always treasure. You give me the feeling of being special and important. Never have I ever had the feeling of being lonely, because you were always there to fill the void. 

 We have known each other for quite some time already and there is a  sentence you like to repeat again and again: “If you’re good at anything, Jungkook can do it better.” And I have to say it’s not quite right, because I am bad at so many things. 

1. Showing that I care. 2. giving advices, like seriously. You stupid idiot always make the mistake of listening to my stupid advice and end up regretting them. Damn, my ideas are the worst, why do you even listen to me in the first place. 3. being nice. 

The sentence should rather be: “If you know anything about Sujeong, Jungkook knows better.” Because just like I do, you tell me literally everything, although I wish I wouldn’t have to witness everything, don’t worry I won’t talk about the nudes or video disasters. Oops-- guess I just did. Or actually I might steal your line because “If you think you know anything about Jeon Jungkook, his Diary Ryu Sujeong knows better.”  

!! - Now please don’t freak out, I am not sick. I might even delete this letter for the following words. Jeon Jungkook loves his best friend Ryu Sujeong alot. And you know what, little shit? You will always come first! You are my first choice. If you don’t approve of anything, then I won’t do it because I know, you always want the best for me. Just like I do. It will always be me who’s there to pick up the broken pieces. A hard job, but I will do it glady. I will never judge or ask questions you don’t wanna answer. I will always support you, no matter what you do. No matter what mistakes you think you will do, I will stick by your side. Girl, you are not a curse, you are a blessing. My best friend, my Diary.