#&kyle

              Natasha has no idea WHY the Force lead her here ( or rather, to him ) but it has never failed her before and so she doesn’t worry. Once she feels his presence, she lowers her shields down – keeps the one protecting her thoughts up but leaves her emotions out in the open.

              She has nothing to hide. She’s curious, slightly excited; no bad intentions in sight.

              That, in turn, surprises her. Her face probably makes a face too. “You can sense it on me? How?”

              She smiles, excited. “A traveler? Other than me?” She’s never heard about them before but – she’s not the only one? “And I can smell you’re from this universe. It’s – different than anywhere else I’ve been to, it’s SO BIG.”

Of the three I can think of, we only knew #1 for more than a few months. We didn’t know any of them for more than a year before they decided they hated us.

All but #1 we never even heard the real voices of. We never saw their faces. We have no idea what they look like. Hell, we didn’t know them well enough to know who was in their systems. 

I wonder what about us makes us so hateable. #2 hardly knew us before they decided we were a terf on no basis of fact whatsoever and they’re still spreading that around to this day. they contacted one of us recently and wrote an entire callout post for us being a terf and “ignoring their pronouns” when we have issues properly parsing neopronouns (mostly due to, you guessed it, a memory disorder!) and asked for an alternative. 

#3 knew us for a little while but they got in a fight with us over something entirely innocuous when we were 14 and haven’t forgiven us since. Not that we really want them to at this point after we’ve heard what we have about them. (Honestly we haven’t heard from #3 in almost a year, thank god) 

But all of them turned around and decided we were abusive with no real basis. And what hurts is that all the people who they screamed it to believed them. There are pockets of this community we’re not welcome in because no one bothered to ask for our side of the story because the word “abuse” was dropped and questioning “abusers” on this site is forbidden. 

#1 used us for months. They manipulated us. They’ve admitted to that, they’ve admitted to the fact they often had awful emotional outbursts on us and turned us around in our own system to intentionally try to get us to pity and help them.

But the second we turn around and do something to defend ourselves, we’re abusive.