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Physical Appearance ––– –

Hair: long purple locks that are beginning to fade into pink waves. what used to be a solid color now exposes her age and her unending need to find equilibrium between light and dark.

Eyes: aquamarine blue. 

Height: 6′

Build: her slim frame hides her strength and muscle quite well, but forces other zones to look a bit more endowed.

Personal ––– –

Profession: free company static leader and resident sleeper.

Hobbies: selfies, sleeping and helping sprouts along their journey.

Languages: mooglespeak (kupo!) and dragonspeak (toskh na!)

Residence: shirogane, but looking to colder climates in ishgard.

Birthplace: golmore jungle, though now banished.

Religion: shiva and hraesvelgr are relationship goals.

Patron Deity: menphina.

Fears: spiders, loss of friends, standing out too much in a crowd and not getting enough sleep.

Relationships ––– -

Spouse: she has had two wives. from year 5 of the seventh umbral era until a requiem for heros in the seventh astral era she was married to aori. after their relationship was dissolved, she married to another shortly after, talon.

Children: none.

Parents: unknown, abandoned at a young enough age to never really know her parents.

Siblings: none.

Other Relatives: none.

Pets: her chocobo, sweetea.

Traits ––– -

Extroverted / In Between / Introverted 

Disorganized / In Between / Organized 

Close Minded / In Between / Open Minded 

Calm / In Between / Anxious 

Disagreeable / In Between / Agreeable 

Cautious / In Between / Reckless 

Patient / In Between / Impatient

Outspoken / In Between / Reserved 

Leader / In Between / Follower 

Empathetic / In Between / Apathetic 

Optimistic / In Between / Pessimistic 

Traditional / In Between / Modern 

Hard-working / In Between / Lazy 

Cultured / In Between / Uncultured 

Loyal / In Between / Disloyal 

Faithful / In Between / Unfaithful

Additional information ––– –

Smoking Habit: only recreationally.

Drugs: none.

Alcohol: occasionally.

From the Player ––– –

my character is an in-game reflection of myself, perhaps more personal than anything. final fantasy xiv has been a source of growth and awakening for me,  through all of the trials and tribulations i’ve faced. for example, though i was never truly “abandoned” as a child, i have been diagnosed with complex ptsd as a result of my parents’ choices when i was younger. my hair actually is purple (though fading to pink because.. well, dye fades). i was genuinely married from 2014 until 2019 and my spouse at the time played ffxiv with me under a character named aori. i believe he still plays, but what his name in-game is now and what he’s up to i’m not entirely sure. while i’m not married again, i am with someone new named talon. i moved in with him in august of 2021 after we had been dating for two years.

writing about my character is kind of difficult for me, because a story never really formed for her until shadowbringers. that expansion dropped the same summer i finalized my divorce, and it led me down into some very dark places as well as into bright places. shadowbringers also brought an immense amount of change in my character, both in terms of race and job choices. from heavensward until shadowbringers, i had been an au’ra, so a lot of the backstory i would have for her doesn’t involve viera. for jobs, i have been playing ffxiv since 2.0 released and for a large majority only played scholar. (i was that one person in my fc for the longest time that only played scholar, actually...) with the changes in shadowbringers to scholar, i was really disappointed with how it felt to play in comparison to how it felt before. because i was going through such a hard time offline, i saw it as an opportunity for growth in-game so i switched to gunbreaker and now it’s my main job. i hope that i’m able to work on her backstory more throughout endwalker and as things continue to improve in my life offline.

i’ve moved to tumblr because of a few reasons. one of them being that the twitter community in terms of modding and general ffxiv stuff has become increasingly toxic and negative. i just wanted a spot ultimately to show off screen captures of my character and talk ffxiv stuff, but it’s so hard to with some of the people i’ve met on twitter. the second reason is because i love reading and writing, and though i probably won’t ever role-play with this character (seriously, don’t count on it), i do still want to be able to read others’ musings about their time in eorzea and perhaps share mine, too. like i said at the beginning, she’s an extension of my offline self, and i’d like to give her as much love and attention as i do my actual self.

i hope that this works as a decent intro to who i am and whatnot. i know i kind of followed a lot of you and only posted big booty modded bunny screen captures, which i realize was probably not the best start lmao, but please do expect more screen caps with mods and i’ll be sure to work on a resources page so that you can see what things i’m working with.