#!mumbling

So I'm seriously just about ready to drop my Sociology class. History’s goin great, but it’s Sociology that’s the problem.

Nothing is making sense to me because everything is in complex, headache-inducing terms I don't understand, I can comprehend and do something with ONE theory out of the like... Seven we’ve talked about. That’s it.

Teacher’s straight up ignoring the fact I can’t understand, and the book isn't helping much either. Doesn’t seem many other people are comprehending any of the things being taught either, since it seems at least half the class has already dropped.

So when I was told there’d be an exam soon my anxiety got so out of hand I nearly threw up.

I’m outright pissed with my teacher, dad’s about to wring the guy’s neck because Gods dammit I’m paying for this shit and if the teacher can’t ensure I understand what’s being taught then I’m wasting my FUCKING investments because I’ll end up failing.

My anime club was fun though, and this evening was better-ish too, I’m at mom’s, got the whole $400 back from her plus my birthday money, and we went for pizza with mom’s friend Alicia, but now my stomach hurts.

I just spoke to someone I'm following, who said they'd set a suicide date for this coming Sunday... In other words, my birthday.

So mom has a realtor coming through to look at her house today--Can't help but wonder what he'll say about it.

When tragic things like this happen, that's precisely why I cherish every thing my favorite groups do, even if I may not say it much.