Im Confused Bro

As the user says this is me questioning if I have OSDD or DID or if it is just dissociation messing with me.

I hate not remembering things, i hate my mood randomly jumping from on to another, i hate not know the details of stuff going on, i hate feeling numb, i hate not feeling like myself even if i am doing thinhs, i hate dissociating and not knowing how long

Forgetting all of yesterday afternoon, How joyous

Is it possible for a systems host to always be in front? Or almost always? I experience dissociation but in the moment I always feel there, if not a bit dissociative or derealized? But I’m there. But then after the fact memories get all blurry and idk if that is just dissociation or could be a sign of osdd or pdid ??

Found a Pinterest board i dont remember making thats named the name i have been assuming is the name of an alter(?) and just has fanart in it- it’s from a month ago so maybe that’s why I don’t remember? Idk.

The lion does not concern himself with the daily memories he forgets