heyyy

hayden pike might be the epitome of a slayless individual

‘i wonder how jacob is going to adapt the boxing day fight… i really hope he takes all the toxicity out and especially the part where ilya backs shane into the wall :(’ okay well i actually love that ilya’s been bottling up all his anger and resentment and fear and communicating in passive aggressive eyerolls for months and blows up out of nowhere during a nice boxing day afternoon and then shane responds by saying the nastiest most hurtful most breathtakingly clueless thing he can think of like a cornered animal and then ilya pulls his usual emotional cutoff and tells him to get the fuck out of his house because he’s done with the fight he started now and then shane refuses to leave and keeps repeating the same question over and over again and then ilya straight up has a cptsd rage blackout and realizes in a very visceral and horrifying way how deeply maladaptive his coping mechanisms are because by refusing to acknowledge that he has any needs at all in order not to hurt shane he is now HURTING SHANE <3 like i know it makes both of them cry and have to take a very hard look at how they’ve been acting as partners and people but it makes me happy to get all that catharsis so :)

so funny that ilya spends all of episode one beating shane + rubbing it in his face and then shane finally gets his win and tries to rub it in ilyas face so cutely his little banter . and ilya is like What are u talking about I never cared about any of this My life fucking sucks obviously. and shane is like 😯 oh damn My bad

i don’t think ilya and marly are sexually involved but i do think they sometimes hold each others dicks when they pee until shane finds out and makes them stop

what’s the best song off ‘fine line’

I went to the club and it was empty...i touched grass and it was dry and wilting at the blade tips. And it was dark. And I was cold

Tried standing with my feet in a stream but it wasn't the same river and I wasn't the same man