Had plans for ten of my friends to spend the night, got like $200 worth of Chinese food, and all 10 cancelled within an hour :,)

A year ago my life was a black hole of lexapro withdrawal and domestic abuse and isolation and I could cry with gratitude for what it is now. I laugh until my belly hurts most days and I spend my time in beautiful places across this continent and I get the opportunity to do work im woefully under qualified for but rise to the occasion, and I do it with some of my best friends. I feel very well loved. So well loved I can’t believe how lucky I am and don’t know what I did to deserve to have so many rich beautiful friendships with the best people in the world. I have my freedom. My life is my own and I’m taking that so seriously. God.

Leaving j tree and heading up to the Sequoias today, meeting Rae up there and spending the weekend next to the kern river. Love to arrive and hate to leave.

Kristoff explaining the system he has for the gardens and the animals “disturb, rest, grow”

If you boil purple sweet potatoes and mash them with silken tofu then add them to a pot with maple syrup cooked brown rice pepitas dried apples cinnamon and a bit of sea salt then top it with whole milk yogurt and fresh cold fruit you will have the beautiful magenta porridge that I’ve been making for breakfast every day in the desert and that Phi says is magical

It was also good to be in the mountains the week before sleeping in Clair and Sam’s bedroom and going out to the bear claw and running into people I know and interviewing them for this project and feeling like part of a community. I want to be in so many places.