Genevieve Sterling

That was a wonderful vacation wasn’t it? I didn’t think I realized just how much I missed the beach until I got to spend every day enjoying it. And as sad as I am to leave it, I am just as excited to get back to Dalton. I would just love to hear about everyone’s adventures! 

Oh! And for those I haven’t had the chance to properly meet yet, I’m Jackie Pillsbury. I moved here not that long ago to help my mother Emma Pillsbury as a personal assistant. But I am hoping to not only do more here but to learn more as well. 

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Glad to hear you had such a great time, Jackie. You’re right, the beach was absolutely beautiful. I miss it already. But, things here definitely aren’t ever boring, which is a huge plus if you ask me. I really enjoyed the tour of the Shipwreck Museum, and I have to say the Ghost Tour really was interesting. Here’s hoping no one brought any ghosties back with them. What was your favorite part of the trip, aside from the beach itself?

[PM] It doesn’t matter because it’s silly. It’s in the past, it shouldn’t matter anymore, Miss. It’s just sometimes things remind me that I’m not so good and maybe I won’t ever be good. It’s like my mind just won’t stop sometimes. Or it does stop and the goodness stops too. I don’t know. It’s hard. 

I know Miss. Thank you for trying to stop us from getting in trouble. I won’t ask about your brothers Dominant. I didn’t mean to lose it with him. It’s just… hard sometimes.

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PM: Clearly, if it’s still bothering you that much, it does matter. It sounds like something you need to work through, something that can be addressed here, at the sanctuary, so that you don’t have to be sad about it anymore. I know there are a lot of different personalities here, but this is a safe space to talk about your feelings. Even if you don’t want to with other residents, or in group sessions, the counselors here are fantastic, and always willing to assist. I myself hate this whole concept of ‘good’ and ‘bad’. I realize it’s biologically engrained, but there’s no human way possible for anyone to be all of one or the other all the time. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Perfection is a mirage, Sarah, and nothing more. It sounds like you’ve got some anxiety issues to work through as well. Nothing wrong with that for sure, but something to recognize. Take it from someone who knows- just bottling that shit up doesn’t work. 

Hey, I get it. You don’t owe me an explanation. I just wanted to help stop it before things got ugly. Do you get angry often?

PRIVATE F2F || GENEVEIVE

If you’re interested in something, you’re always free to go. I do want to spend time with you, that will be my first choice any time, but I am aware that not everything is for me and there are going to be things that you want to do that I can’t handle or don’t want to. The Shipwreck Museum does sound like a good time, we can do that. 

Thank you for the permission, Mx. I’ll still always want to make sure you’re alright with that, though. You know I wouldn’t do anything without your permission or knowledge. You’re the best, Mx. The best. I’m so excited you want to go, I’m really looking forward to doing that with you. Would you like me to wear my leash, Mx?

I hope you guys can join us!  I think it’s going to be great.

Mx said the museum sounds fun! So, it looks like we will be! Heck yeah, you and I definitely need to carve out some time to hang out. No harm in getting to know each other, especially if we’re going to be consistent dance parters!

I don’t have coffee alot, probably because it makes me super energetic and I end up more tired than before I had it. I’m don’t know why I mentioned it. Maybe because I’m sad more than I probably should be. Sorry, that doesn’t matter. It’s nice to meet you Miss Genevieve.

[PM] I’m sorry. I won’t be replying to him again. I couldn’t help myself. I’ve been around mean people before. I’ve been walked all over before. I just don’t want it to happen again. And I’ve only just got here and I really don’t want to be in trouble or kicked out. I’m sorry.

** Maybe there’s a good reason for that, it seems. But, at least you got to see what you wanted. That’s a good thing. Makes sense, too. When your energy levels go up that high, there’s always a crash after. Why are you sad? I didn’t say it didn’t matter. Nice to meet you as well. 

PM: It’s alright. I’m not meaning to reprimand you, I’m just trying to look out for you both. I can assure you, Vic isn’t a mean person, or one who seeks out people to torment. His Dom, though, that’s...A bit of a different story. I’m just trying to make sure everyone stays as sane and happy as possible. No need to apologize. 

Who’s Jesus H? I’m Sarah. No, I’m not always like this. I got coffee. And I’m super duper excited. Sometimes I’m just normal and sometimes I’m sad. What’s your name?

...It’s an expression. As in ‘Jesus H. Christ’? One coffee did you like that? Why bring up that you’re sometimes sad? Everyone is sad, sometimes. So, that’s not exactly something people generally bring up in everyday conversation. I’m Genevieve. Sterling. I’m a Switch. 

PRIVATE F2F || GENEVEIVE

I see my name on the dash, Doll. Do you have something you want to ask me?

@switchgigisterling​

Yes, Mx. I just wasn’t sure if you were interested in going on any of the tours today. I thought the Shipwreck Museum sounded interesting, but I’ll understand if you don’t want to go. 

So who is coming on the Shipwreck Museum Tour with the ever lovely Miss Lorelai and I this afternoon?  Did you know that at one point in history a boat a week shipwrecked on the reef off the coast?  That Key West was one of the richest cities in America?  Hope to see a bunch of you out to see what else we can learn in Key West today!

I guess that sounds pretty cool. I’ll see if Mx. Gabriel would like to join. 

I’m so so excited to go visit Ernest Hemingway’s Home! Who else is coming?!

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Jesus H, are you always like...This? Asking for future reference. 

Campbell: Nope. You should know that by now.

Campbell: Hey, I won't hear any of that. How you feel is how you feel, and that is valid. Have you tried talking with them? Telling them how you feel? Discussing solutions?

Campbell: I mean, I would say 'I know' but I'm certain the moment I do, something will fall to bits.

GiGi: You're right about that.

GiGi: Thanks for that, Bells. Yeah, I have. But it doesn't...Always get very far. I don't know. I want to keep trying, I'm not ready to give up. I just feel...Discouraged. I do my best, you know? I've done all kinds of reading and research and watched video after video and listened to podcast after podcast, done everything in my power to make them comfortable and I just...Sometimes wonder if we'll ever...Get there. Sometimes I feel like I'm floundering, but I also don't feel I can tell them that. Sometimes I just...Want to be held, you know? It's crazy, I've never met someone who understands me as well as Gabriel does. But at the same time...Sometimes I think they never /will/ fully get me. Sometimes I think no one will.

GiGi: Now I'm just being a brat. Ugh, I've got to snap out of this. I wonder if there's a studio around here somewhere? I'll ask Nick, see if he knows of anywhere or if he can at least book some time.

Campbell: Are you sure about that, Genevieve? Because, by my calculations, there hasn't been one single solitary time I can ever remember you biting that tongue of yours.

Campbell: Don't shut me out please, Gen. I've had quite enough of that lately.

Campbell: I'm doing...Well. I think.

GiGi: Man, can't get anything past you, huh?

GiGi: I'm alright. I'm just sulking. I'll snap out of it quickly, because I want to enjoy this vacation. But...I don't know. I've been feeling a little...Off. Lately. I guess. I just...Feel like things with Gabriel are in stasis, and I'm not sure what to do to change that. Or what to do to save it. I'm probably just being ridiculous.

Campbell: Are you alright, Gen?

GiGi: Me? I'm peachy keen, jellybean!