NCY

I’m glad to have a guy bestfriend. Just wanna thank him for being the opposite gender and telling me how it is through a guys perspective.

It’s been hard not trying to tell my ex everything about how I feel right now because I simply want to move on.

These are the things that’s going to be left unsaid unless you finally find my tumblr:

I’m not expendable. I can’t be that girl that always waited for you to come back after you decide to leave me just cause you feel like it. I deserved better than that and it sucks that I didn’t care what I deserved at the time. I loved you, I really did.

Two years into our relationship, you tell me you cheated on me with some girl you met at the gym. Days go by and I took you back. From that point our relationship got better; we grew stronger. But I gave you a different kind of love since that happened. Another couple of years go by and I start giving up on you. Half of year breaking each other’s hearts like it was nothing.

Year 2018 till now, both of us have grew sooo much. Within ourselves and with each other. I think this was our happiest moments. I have my career; you got your music making going on. Now that I finally see you genuinely happy with yourself even with your depression, this is where our relationship has come to an end. Do you know how ducking disappointing that is? To wait 7 years to finally see you grow into the man I thought I deserved?

Last night you finally text me saying you were happy when you were with me but you think that this is better for us. I said okay, and you asked if I agreed. Tell me why it was so hard to answer that? I know that it was true but I didn’t want to admit it. So I just didn’t reply. Cause honestly there was so much I had to say but everything was meaningless.

I am moving on and I’m happy most days. It’s just the random moments I think of you that kicks me in the fucking neck.

This is better for me cause I deserve someone who doesn’t leave me every few months. I never knew why you did this and I hate that I let you do this. This probably sucks for you cause you really needed me and everyone knows that. Good luck to finding yourself all over again and I hope you keep that piece of happiness that you have going on for yourself.