Welcome to my lil dairy

I just type what ever I want idc. (I know I sound crazy)

I’ll be updating my #’s here :D

5’6

HW:168 SW:162 CW:145 UGW:120

GW 1: 145

GW 2: 140

GW 3: 135

02/11

So I’m baaaaaaack

im in a new state with my bf!

I’m currently 145 cuz since I’ve been with my bf we’re eating like crazy 😭

So I came back to get back on the grind

Def will be starting Monday.

10/27

Im seeing my long distance bf this 31st yaaaaay.

He last saw me at my highest weight at 160 something idr lol and now he’s seeing me a 136 hopefully 135 by the time he gets here :)

We’re having a cheat meal scared but not that worried cuz I have been feeling full super easy. I need a cheat meal tho I’m at the point that if I don’t have a rest day I’ll get sick

Scarrrrreddd tho but happy.

I want to be at 130 in 3 weeks hopefully 5 pounds 3 weeks that’s not crazy right?

10/20

FINALLYYYY I’m out of the 140s I finally hit 139 yesterday

I feel proud but also worried cuz itll only get harder from here

10/24 (10/20 was in my drafts so I’m just adding on to this)

I’m 137 rn :) I’ve just been restricting every day and burning off almost everything

Also something kinda wild happened

Thought I got sick took a zinc vitamin on an empty stomach ate dinner and it made me throw ⬆️

I saw everything I ate it was kinda amazing. I would never do that on purpose tho it was painful and I’m sensitive lol

But I do feel like it helped a lot and got me at a lower weight faster :)

Still feel fat but this time I will hit my ugw no mater what

I WILL BE SKINNY

I WILL BE SKINNY

ONE MORE POUND

one more pound and I’m finally 140

Been working out daily haven’t eaten out or over 800cals

So finally back to my weight before I lost power ❤️

Happy but unhappy cuz it set me back a whole week but it’s ok.

My mom brought desert in the house. My favorite too. I always feel so powerful when I refuse food

I need advice

I basically fucked up and gained 3lb in a week cuz of the hurricane (no fridge no gym no walking) had to spend all my time with family which I had to eat with blah blah blah.

Looking for a week long diet that will help me shed all of this. I usually do 700-900 cals a day with exercise.

I FINALLY have power but no gym so need to rely on restricting and eating the right food.

I really wish I had a guide like someone I can talk to that I just send what I eat to and they help 😭

I’m trying but I feel like this week F**cked me up.

I’m devastated right now…the hurricane hit and I lost power for 5 days. So I had to eat dry foods that are usually carbs. I lost my 145lb milestone and set myself back sooooo much. Couldn’t work out couldn’t do anything.

I’ve been crying because I finally had lights to see how much I weigh and I can’t do it. I just can’t see the damage I did. Im going to the gym today and I’m not weighing myself until maybe 3 days in of working out and eating good.

I feel terrible disgusting and disappointed . I want to give up so bad rn…but I won’t. I’m going to try my hardest to go back to where I was.

I’m disgusted with myself.

I binged a little I think I hit 1000 cals today….

I’m not happy this is going to slow me down a bit.

AND I can’t go to the gym for a while :(

9/26/22

I did it! First hurdle of the weight lose DONE. im 145 now!

Im still fat tho so I will not be celebrating in any food related way.

But wow I’ve worked so hard for this and I will pat myself on the back.

I just can’t wait till I can go out and buy cute clothes 🤍🤍

Also in unrelated news I did well on my accounting exam. 71/100 but the highest was an 80 lol so I feel like I’m doing good.

Manifesting good grades and a skinny body

I WILL BE SKINNY

I WILL BE SKINNY

9/24/22

I know I know…..it’s only been 2 days since I said I’m only 2 lbs away from my first GW.

BUT THE FRUSTRATION OF NOT LOSING WEIGHT IS TO MUCH

is it normal to lose a lb a day? Lol idk I’m just so over being fat

I walked around a mall today just looking at the clothes I’ll be able to fit in when I’m skinny.

I just ate dinner weighed myself and it’s 147 or Should I count that or the 145 I woke up to this morning.

9/22/22

TWO MORE LBS

Two more pounds and I hit my first weight loss goal. 🥹

But honestly idk if I should count the weight when I wake up or end of the day.

ALSO I never fast but 2 days ago I did and WOW it helped me lose a pound sooner!