may 13, 2026
ACHING DESPERATION PULSING NEED
i am hungry

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blake kathryn
we're not kids anymore.

if i look back, i am lost

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Not today Justin
Sade Olutola
RMH

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PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
hello vonnie
Today's Document
YOU ARE THE REASON
Monterey Bay Aquarium
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trying on a metaphor
Jules of Nature
$LAYYYTER

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@sweetlibradreams
may 13, 2026
ACHING DESPERATION PULSING NEED
i am hungry

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april 24, 2026
misty unclear
what is it?
april 12, 2026
to sit with you
simply
may i have that?
god?
april 7, 2026
lashing out
april 6, 2026
seeking confirmation
seeking certainty, knowing
robs me of the fullness that life can offer

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march 31, 2026
i did say i like to suffer
me: oh u want to actually know me? to have intimate relationships is to be known fully? *leaves*
do i go over?
march 19, 2026
unknowingly keeping people away
these walls kept me safe (rejecting myself first)
to soften?
to soften
to soften to soften to soften
over and over again
tension rises, the urge to place another brick along the rigid walls of isolating self protection
reminding myself
let go
let go
let go let go let go
soften
march 19, 2026
full of dirt, hiding
open me up open me up open me up
dig through to my roots
hands full of dirt (hiding)
open me up open me up
open me up
dig through to the depths of my roots

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march 19, 2026
it's hard to be myself around you
and it's not your fault. it's just kinda me rn
march 19, 2026
retreating behind my walls
"if they really liked me, they would.."
"they think im annoying"
feels safer to assume the worst than hope for the best
keeps me away from the risk of rejection, abandonment and embarrassment
because ive already done it to myself
march 8, 2026
THEY ASK IF IM OKAY AND I LIE
THEY ASK ME IF IM OKAY
AND I LIE
march 8, 2026
i am so tired of self fulfilling prophecies like why am i fucking like this bro. and then i feel like people dont actually like me bc im just hiding. but i cant be vulnerable. i dont want to be sensitive and burdensome and annoying bc ik this shit isnt actually based in reality. i hate feeling like this. i hate feeling like this.
march 5, 2026
confronted with my avoidance
the ways i manuever to shield and hide myself

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"Revolution is about awakening transformation"
A quote from Elmina Bell
journal entry on march 25, 2025
"wondering if my path is related to spiritual and emotional care work. i dont want to make any rash decisions based in ego, self-pity, giving up when i have old coping mechanisms come up. when i think of leaving, it does feel pretty rooted and i want to cry - feels like a knowing that i'll leave."
back of this collage (made on the same day):
"'Ba-Kongo Kosmogram: crossroads represent various possibilities; making choices; places where we reflect; deals with destiny, cycles, different stages and growth that we go through in our lives; commitment; life/death/rebirth; requires honesty.' -Elmina Bell"
journal entry from september 16, 2025
"last night, had intense dream with Dhoruba. he told me to 'dance with fear,' and later, 'dance with faith,' with a half smile on his face. and i turned to the people there and said (myself), 'dance with struggle.' i had this sense that he was telling me that this is my struggle now. i felt so close to him. started sobbing when i said 'dance with struggle.' i woke up sobbing, too. all that is to come. eclipse season, baby."