SVT-Essie 2.0

I think I am dealing with grief over losing my Essie account. I went from having almost 1000 followers to barely 200 (which I am so so grateful for no matter the number—having 10 followers feels like an achievement for me). I was really enjoying writing for Essie (I still do) and interacting with everyone, but after losing my account, I think I lost the spark a little. It doesn't help that there is so much I want to change, but I also don't want to change anything because I love her where she is, and you also do too.

Don't panic; I am not giving up on Essie. I feel like I rushed to come back because I love Essie as much as you all do (honestly, a very tiny, tiny, small part of me wonders if I should have stayed away). I think I just need a little time to sort through things. I will write for her when I can. I will try and get old posts edited and posted on to this account.

I do appreciate you all.

Some good news I guess: I am getting a new laptop in 3-4 weeks. I'm finally getting a gaming laptop and I'll have enough saved by then so no more annoying chromebook that I've been having so much issues with.

I might create another OC and do with her what I wanted to do with Essie but couldn't fit into her narrative. Maybe a soloist, wanna one 12th!member/soloist/actress or another svt 14th!member. If I do, I'll let you know.

Right now, she’s sitting in the apartment she shares with Jeonghan and Seungkwan, headphones and blue light glasses on. She’s hunched over her laptop as she works on the song for TWS, fixing things that don’t sound right and making notes of which part might suit which member the best.  

As the soft glow of her laptop screen illuminated the dimly lit room, Essie leaned back in her chair for a moment, allowing her mind to drift. She looks at the clock on the wall near the kitchen. It’s 12:05AM. Her stomach starts to rumble, reminding her that she'd missed dinner after telling Seungkwan not to worry about ordering her anything. After Seungkwan had put up a fuss about her not eating, she promised that she would get herself something later. He hesitated but ultimately let her be, deciding to see if one of their other members was free to grab dinner with him. 

With a reluctant groan, she saves her work, takes off her glasses and headphones, and stands up, stretching her stiff and achy body. Taking her laptop back to her room, she grabs Seungcheol's hoodie that he left last time he was over and pulls it on before grabbing her bag, making sure her wallet was inside. She exits her bedroom just as Jeonghan leaves his room, half asleep.    

"Where are you going?" he asks, noticing her getting ready to leave the apartment.    

"The convenience store down the street," she answers, picking up her phone and checking it to see if Seungcheol had replied to her message that she sent to him a few hours ago. When she sees she hasn’t gotten a reply, she places her phone inside her bag. He’s still in LA with Mingyu preparing for the CxM unit debut. "Snack run. Do you want anything?"    

"Give me a minute and I'll come with you," he tells her, now more awake, and heads back inside his bedroom to change out of his pyjamas and back into his clothes.  

"You don't have to come," Essie assures him when he comes back out, putting his wallet into his pocket.     

"And have Cheol-ah kill me for letting you go for a walk alone at this time of night?" Jeonghan asks, his tone playful yet laced with an undertone of genuine concern, reminding her of how fiercely protective her now fiancee can be when it comes to her safety. But even if Seungcheol wasn't her big scary protective boyfriend, Jeonghan still wouldn't let her go out alone at night by herself. None of the thirteen guys in her circle would ever allow her to wander the streets at night alone. “I’m not ready to die yet,” He adds dramatically, feigning a hand over his heart as if the mere idea of his murder is enough to send him into a panic.     

Essie chuckles softly at his antics, “Okay, I suppose I don't want to be the reason for your untimely demise.”     

His eyes sparkle with mock sincerity as he replies with a bowed head, “Thank you.”   

With that, the duo makes their way to the entrance of their apartment, put on their shoes and head out the door into the warm summer night air. The streetlights cast a gentle glow on the pavement, lighting their way as they strolled side by side. Essie could hear the distant buzz of traffic and the occasional laughter from a group of friends nearby. Seoul always seems to come alive more at night, it being the time when people could relax after work. 

"How's the song coming along?" Jeonghan asks, breaking the silence that had fallen over them.   

Essie smiled softly, glancing sideways at Jeonghan. “It’s coming along.”   

Jeonghan nodded thoughtfully, his hands tucked into the pockets of his hoodie. "And practice for the tour?"   

"That's also coming along," she sighs a little sadly. Today it got to her that they will be doing this tour as 10 instead of 14 and that the group numbers will continue to lower over the next year or two. “It’s been hard adjusting to not having you and Nonu there. Now I- we have to adjust to not having Soonyoung and Jihoonie there too," she opens up to him.   

Jeonghan’s expression shifted, the light-heartedness fading into something more serious. He wraps an arm around the younger woman’s shoulders, pulling her into his side. "I know it's tough but before you know it, we'll all be back on that stage together again." His words hung in the air like a promise. "Telling myself that helps me get through it." 

A moment of quietness enveloped, thick with unspoken words as they both contemplated the journey ahead.  

"Maybe you and Cheol could put some of the things you've been talking about in action during this time," he suggests. "Looking for a home together would be a good start."  

"Yah! Are you trying to kick me out?," Essie jokes, pretending to look shocked and offended.  

Jeonghan laughed, "No! I’m just saying it might be a good idea. You've been together four years, he's either at our apartment or your at his and his brother's apartment and you have that rock on your finger. Maybe it's time to start thinking about it.” 

"Am I going to come home from tour to find all my stuff packed?" She kids again.  

"You will if you don't listen to me," he jokes back.   

"I'll have you know, Cheol and I have been talking about it," she informs him. "We want to start looking for our own place after the tour. You'll just have to put up with me a little longer," she teases. But little did she know their plans would happen sooner than they think. 

Jeonghan raised an eyebrow, a smirk playing at the corners of his lips. "So, you’re saying I'll only have to put up with your endless array of nail polishes cluttering the apartment for just a little while longer?"  

"I'll leave some behind so you don't miss me too much," she smiles, nudging his side.  

Reaching the convenience store, they head inside. Essie picks up a basket and heads for the snacks aisle. Jeonghan went straight to the drinks isle, picking up a couple cans of dr. pepper for her while grabbing himself the drink he wanted. As Essie navigates the snack aisle, she throws a bag of honey butter chips, a bag of turtle chips, a pack of choco pies, and an instant ramen and tteokbokki into the basket before making her way over to the display fridges and chooses two packs of Gimbap, placing them into the basket.  

Essie made her way to the checkout; her basket filled her late-night cravings. Jeonghan rejoins her with the drinks and some snacks he wants to get for himself. They both pay and head back to their apartment.   

As soon as they arrive back at the apartment, Jeonghan puts his snacks away and heads back to bed, leaving Essie to get back to what she's working on while she finally fills her belly. 

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