Blog de Susi

Ten months have passed between these two photos. I thought I'd run out of tears. That I'd never get involved again. That I'd use men as accessories, like an interchangeable handbag or bracelet. It's been just enough time for my eyes to fill with tears again. Ready to flow once more. I hope they stay where they are forever. I hope they never have to wet my face again.

Today after work I met up with my boyfriend and some of his friends. I already knew some of them, but only superficially. Let's just say he finally introduced me, even though it was them who managed to get us together with a jokey phone call. I had this feeling of being put on display in front of them. Instead of myself, I could have been a new car. He was proudly showing me off; his first girlfriend. And they were cautiously approaching to examine the car's bodywork. What a strange world men live in! It was funny😹

My mouth has laughed, been sad, angry, drunk, bumped itself, kissed, sighed, spoken, shouted, been kissed, whispered, eaten, gotten dirty, been painted, mocked, amazed, expressed fear, and also joy, licked ice cream, burned itself, bled, had braces, had them removed, bitten, and simply smiled.

And surely there's something my mouth hasn't done yet. Not yet…

My name is Susi. I usually post things on this blog. You might have seen me before. Lately, I've been a bit absentminded. I stare into space and don't listen. I forget my keys. And today I crossed the road without looking.

Okay, I'm home now. I'll tell you about my date with the guy. He's still shy, but less so. We talked about a lot of things: his projects, what I do. A little gossip, but he's very discreet. He took me to one of the best restaurants in Madrid. I don't know how he managed to get the reservation with so little notice. He kept looking at me and told me I looked beautiful, literally that I was a dream. There was one dish I told him I didn't like and asked him to change it, just to see how he'd react. He didn't even hesitate and changed it. I was looking for red flags and couldn't find any, and I was getting nervous.

Then I looked up and saw him sitting there watching me, and I felt a butterfly flutter in my stomach. Afterwards, we went for a walk, and he started getting nervous. One of his hands was trembling a little, and he started telling me he wanted me to be his girlfriend. It was obvious he was making a tremendous effort to overcome his fear, and I let him finish. I thought it best to let him have his way.

I smiled at him, hugged him, and clinging to him, I kissed him and told him I'd love to. Then I captured the moment. We continued walking hand in hand, happy. And then he walked me home.

This is a little secret. A personal pleasure. Scented candles, bath salts, and nudity does the rest. It's a relaxing and solitary pleasure. I wish I had a bigger bathtub at home. But I usually take advantage of hotel stays. Everyone has their quirks, haha. This is one of mine. It helps me think and escape into imaginary worlds.

If you ever go to a hotel with me and you see me taking a long time in the bathroom, you'll know what I'm doing hahaha 😎😘🛀

Thank God a man was passing by, saw what happened, yelled at them, and they ran away. She has some scratches, a bruise, and her clothes are torn, but most of all, she's terrified.