نَtَlَِ | ناتاليا

It feels so bittersweet when you bring up the past, our past.

I should be doing a 6 page paper right now but instead I'm going to vent. I really don't know what to feel. Sometimes I think I'm mentally unstable because one day I'll feel really emotional and the next I'll feel numb. I've drifted away from my friends and it hurts me that they don't make an effort to change things. I feel like I'm always there for them when they need me and I'm always checking up on them but I never get that back. It sucks because I'm so very picky with people and I find it hard to associate myself with others because everyone seems so shallow to me. School is stressing, I don't think I'll be graduating this year because I'm missing one required class and I'm failing four out of my seven classes. I also have to start applying for colleges soon and I have to retake the act to get a decent score, I hate it when I tell people my score and they're like "oh that's good" no. it's not good enough if your parents already told you to not count on them $ wise, I'm pretty much dependent on my gpa and act, but I kind of ruined that with these grades. Also, my dreams have been all over time place and they won't let me have rest. I want life to change because I really don't find interest in things anymore.