STUDY : SAMANTHA ERIN GIDDINGS.
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IS YOUR MUSE TALL / SHORT / AVERAGE?
sam is only five foot and one inches, definitely one of the shortest of the group and is definitely reminded of it a lot.
ARE THEY OKAY WITH THEIR HEIGHT?
over time she got to be okay with it, having always been the smallest in her class or group, however she never lets it stop her from doing anything. she makes up for her height in strength and having the attitude of somehow who is probably a foot taller than she is. she might be small, but she can keep up / beat some of the guys who are who much taller and larger than her.
a honey coloured blonde with natural sun bleached highlights throughout it, has been a vary of many lengths over the years, usually depending how confident she is feeling. the lower her confidence / higher anxiety, the shorter her hair becomes. however she usually likes it either short to a pixie cut or long enough that she can style it in a way to make sure that she can keep the majority of her face.
DO THEY SPEND A LOT OF TIME ON THEIR HAIR / GROOMING?
considering her active lifestyle, she showers a lot and takes good care of her hair, never wanting to get the passing comments from girls like emily or jessica about the state of it. however, she does like to experiment with different ways of styling it from the different kinds of buns, braids or updo’s she can do depending on the activity she is doing.
DOES YOUR MUSE CARE ABOUT THEIR APPEARANCE / WHAT OTHERS THINK?
she might act like she doesn’t care, usually due to her feeling like no matter what she does, she will fade in the background compared to the other girls, but she does try to make some kind of effort especially if she isn’t doing something overly active, like just going to spend time with her friends. out of her friendship group, some of the group’s opinions mean more than others, the majority are often dismissed but the small handful that are her closest friends definitely mean more to her than she would admit.
depends. it would usually be outside, no matter what the weather or season, rain or shine, she can find some kind of activity to do that she will enjoy, whether it be hiking / climbing / surfing for example. however, it usually depends on whether she will be alone or with someone one else. sadly, after the events on the twins anniversary, she does lose her love for the outdoors, more due to fear of what she knows is out there.
either, nothing is going to stop samantha giddings from going outside.
before the twins anniversary, she would have been happy in either. however afterwards, the beach just feels a little safer than the forest.
no real preference, however she definitely does not like the destruction of the earth to mine such things.
flowers, natural smells are always the best in her opinion.
PERSONALITY OR APPEARANCE?
personality, always. you can tell a lot more about a person from their personality. appearances can be deceiving and she would rather see the real person underneath.
BEING ALONE OR BEING IN A CROWD?
depends on how large of a crowd, even within the group of the ten of them she can feel like she fades into the background, overlooked by some of the more louder of the group. she definitely doesn’t mind being on her own, she doesn’t feel as exhausted after a day on her own than if she had spent time with the group as a whole. however, she is a lot better in smaller groups of three or four, or definitely flourishes on one on one situations.
order, however she does appreciate a little anarchy every now and again.
PAINFUL TRUTHS OR WHITE LIES?
painful truths, she’s usually the one who has to give them to people. however, after the events on the twins anniversary, she sees the beauty within white lies.
science, seeing as it is real and can be explained. magic and anything supernatural makes her uncomfortable because it cannot be explained within reason.
peace is always preferred, but sadly, she is definitely the type to be one of the first to step up to fight in a conflict.
always day, there is a lot of fun to be had at night but after a while, the night just gets too much and it’s just the time to rest and hide away.
sam is definitely the type to rise to watch the sunrise and start the day early on no matter what.
before the events on the twins anniversary, she preferred the cold because it made her work harder to stay warm, plus there is a certain beauty to the cold months. however afterwards, the cold is just a reminder of that night and she would do anything to try and avoid it.
MANY ACQUAINTANCES OR A FEW CLOSE FRIENDS?
a few close friends, even in the group there is only a few of them that she would actually consider her close friends.
READING OR PLAYING A GAME?
if she’s alone, she would rather read a book but she is definitely not opposed to playing video games. for someone who is against violence, she kicks ass at call of duty, especially zombies.
WHAT ARE SOME OF YOUR MUSE’S BAD HABITS?
keeping her opinions and her emotions to herself. sam doesn’t emote a lot, doesn’t give away how she is feeling and whilst that comes with an element of control in moments of high emotions or panic, it also has a tendency to make it look like she doesn’t care or isn’t reacting in a healthy way. a year on from the twins disappearance, she is one of the few who is visibly less upset by what has happened. this could either be because she has accepted what everyone else has been denying ( believes that the twins are dead ) or doesn’t healthily know how express her feelings in a way that doesn’t make her feel like she is attempting to take away from someone’s pain. plus, she also has a slight bad habit of smoking weed a lot.
HAS YOUR MUSE LOST ANYONE CLOSE TO THEM? HOW HAS IT AFFECTED THEM?
before the twins disappeared, at most all sam had lost was a few pets and a grandparent. but losing hannah and beth definitely hurt her more than she could ever express. she lost her best friends because of something she hadn’t been able to stop, whilst she didn’t actively take part in the prank, she didn’t do enough to stop it. she lost her best friend, the one person she was really close to and losing hannah probably made her feel a little lost. hannah was the reason she was connected to the rest of the group, without her, she felt like she didn’t fit in and she also didn’t feel like she could trust any of them again. the event that led to the twins disappearance put a lot of things into perspective - always trust your instincts about something not being right and you can’t trust anyone, especially not the people who claimed to be your friend. apart from maybe the one person who may be able to understand the way she’s feeling ; joshua.
WHAT ARE SOME FOND MEMORIES YOUR MUSE HAS?
there’s the time that she met the washington siblings for the first time, where josh told her that there was no way she could climb the tree in the school yard, only for her to prove him wrong and then needing hannah to go get a teacher when she couldn’t figure out exactly how to get down - they were seven and from the moment she thanked hannah for helping her, they were inseparable. or what about the first her and her dad managed to get her old car running just a few months before her sixteenth birthday, a car they had been working on since she was twelve? or what about when emily had convinced her to come prom dressing shopping and actually convinced her to get into a dress that made her look like she was from a fairy tale book? the many parties that the washingtons held, the many laughs she had shared with josh and chris, the late night talks she had with josh over a joint, the different school events that the group somehow managed to find a way of ending up attending despite half of them being a year older, the roadtrips with a load of them stuck in her old car singing along to whatever song they happened to be playing. there are so many but after a while, they got tainted with pain and mistrust.
IS IT EASY FOR YOUR MUSE TO KILL?
she would have always thought that the answer to this would be yes. she was against violence but if it came down to a matter of life or death, especially if the person had done plenty to make her feel like they didn’t deserve to live the life they had, then maybe it wouldn’t be so difficult to dash towards the light before waiting for him to get out. sam definitely has a dark side that she tries to keep back, that she is often fighting within herself to be the good version of herself but if someone had caused her and the people she loved so much pain.
WHAT’S IT LIKE WHEN YOUR MUSE BREAKS DOWN?
this is definitely a slow and drawn out process. it starts with a complete shut down of emotions, she is no longer feeling anything and has no desire to feel anything. she is so good at convincing everyone else that she is fine that she almost does the same until eventually all that denial will come crashing down, usually with violent results. not that she will end up hurting anyone, it will usually be herself that ends up getting hurt as she will usually trash a room or something. plus if she starts crying, it’s not like the crying you’d expect from someone her age, it sounds a lot more like the crying of a scared little girl who doesn’t know what is happening. or it can be impulsive and irrational behaviour which would usually put herself at risk. it’s incredibly likely that if josh’s body is never found, that in an impulsive decision she would go back to try and find it herself, which possibly would end up in two ways - finding a wendigo ! josh and getting him home, or, the more likely, her death. depending on if she ever lets anyone in after the events on the twins anniversary, it would be more surprising if sam makes it through the year without at least one or more suicide attempt.
IS YOUR MUSE CAPABLE OF TRUSTING SOMEONE WITH THEIR LIFE?
sam was always the person to see the good in people, to always trust her friends and keep focused on the positive. then the prank on hannah happened and it completely broke her world view and that trust she had completely shatters. there are only a few people she would actually trust and still see the good in them, but would she trust them with her life? until his prank, josh would have been the only person she had trusted with her life. after that, there is no one she would trust, but she will forever always see the good in josh.
WHAT’S YOUR MUSE LIKE WHEN THEY’RE IN LOVE?
sam is definitely not an overly romantic person, it being her lowest characteristic. she has watched couples like mike and emily constantly argue and tear apart friendships, she isn’t sure if she would want to be involved in anything like that. but that doesn’t mean she wouldn’t be open to it, she just wouldn’t be very good at admitting that she has these feelings, especially if they were both a part of the same friendship group. she is more concerned about not causing drama than her own happiness that she would rather not say she was in love than give into it. that being said, she is definitely a good person to be in a relationship with, she’s caring, a good listener, patient to some degree and would like to see the best in her partner.
