Lost Princess

How does my heart and mind hurt so much at once.. I just want it to stop. The battle between what my mind n heart wants is too much.

Crying over a guy who makes u feel like ur never enough at 5am hit different.

I feel gross in my skin sometimes. I wonder if my partner finds me less attractive now. I feel less attractive regardless.

Sometimes I take photos of myself and in the moment I think I look gross and not pretty. But when I go back to the photos a week later I think.. why didn't I post this I looked good:(

I can never tell whether it's my body dysmorphia or my overthinking that makes me unsure of what videos/photos are good enough to post on social media... but then again social media standards are bizarre.