shave the pride

and that doesnt even include my autism STOPPPPP

So fun knowing that caring about beauty and being attractive is stupid and bad for me but I literally can’t stop! it feels like the only thing in my brain that I’m supposed to strive for and it fucking sucks bc then I just feel like I’m just repeatedly failing myself and like it’s my own fault anyway and that I’m a fucking stupid ugly loser. Like I hate it so much

i just really miss my boyfriend and have been going through a lot of emotional stuff and it feels so much harder when he is so far away. like he is still giving me the same support either way because he is a sweetie but i just wish i was with him. it is so comforting to be able to look over when im anxious and freaking out and see that he is just calm and that nothing bad is actually happening. like i miss the silent reassurance that i just got from him being in the room with me. and i feel bad bc i tell him i miss him so often that i fear he thinks im crazy lol