Nothing Good Gets Away

“Then I started slipping out of the world / and I kept on slipping.”

But one day you’ll find someone who stops the world for you, as she stopped the world for me. I promise.

“I condemn you. Yet my heart yearns towards you. I would go with you through the fires of death. Yet am happiest alone.”

I didn’t fully comprehend what a big part of my life he’d become. He’d become so…familiar to me. And now he’s just gone. Not gone, still here, just not available to me, which might be even worse.

He kissed her lips gently. ‘That’ll do,’ he said.

You’re beautiful,“ he whispers involuntarily.

I still believed in love.

In my heart I love her all the time.

“I forgot everything. Your lips were so beautiful.”

“I—” She looked at him helplessly, her eyes filling with tears. “I just wanted to say hello.”

You can’t imagine what it’s been like. Things you’ve just said and forgotten, I’ve put myself asleep night after night remembering—trying to squeeze something more out of them.

I was with him with every fiber of my body and soul.

I don’t really want to have sex without loving the person, and I haven’t really loved anybody,

I longed for love unbearably,

It’s make-believe. Wishful thinking, I know I shouldn’t do it: I should face reality. But reality has too much darkness in it. Too many crows.

…until I am safely and entirely something else.