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“I’m not saying that at some point love isn’t staying up until 2am phone calls or stealing kisses when you least expect it, or instantly falling for each other’s favorite songs because it is, or at least that’s what the lead up to it feels like, but real love, is so much more. It’s going out at 12am to get something to eat for your wife who can’t get out of bed, it’s listening to them as they explode with vulnerability on your living room couch talking about how they were only so young when their parents passed on. it’s remembering how someone likes their coffee in the morning without asking—without ever asking, it’s visiting someone in the hospital knowing the last thing you want to do is see them in that condition, it’s wanting to be with that person despite everything, the future, the past, and everything in between, it’s the intimate things that you don’t even realize involve such intimacy, but they do, in secret, like the pinky promises you two made behind your back, to love one another for always, in the time you thought you were in love, when you were actually just on your way to it.”

I’ll never forget the way he looked at me - like I was the only thing in the room. When our eyes met, everyone in the room could see how we felt about each other. Sometimes I wonder if he ever really liked me at all, but then I remember that look. That look said it all without using a single word. Any doubt disappears. He loved me, and I loved him. It was real. We were real.

If you take that chance with me, I’ll immerse myself in your love to the point of self destruction. I’ll cross lines & limits until I cannot return…. because you are the one for me & I for you. All I need, is the courage to let this depth inside reach the surface & drown us forever more.