from the west side with love

Birthday wishes that i can only dream of telling you. I miss you so much. The world hurts more and more as every day goes by without you, your absence is so heavy i can’t even explain. I would move mountains to see you again, swim across every river to hear your voice. I would topple cities and sink islands if it meant i could be with you again. Life without you is the kind of pain i wouldn’t wish upon my worst enemy, the kind of pain that only gets stronger as time goes on. I search for you everywhere i go, not a second goes by without you on my mind. We lie to ourselves with distractions, we bring flowers to you knowing they mean nothing. Flowers that you once brought to us. I lay on the soil and hope to become one with the earth, waiting to come and join you. I lie to myself, i lie to you. Birthday wishes i wish i could be giving to you in the morning, but now i have birthday wishes i can only write to you. 55. You would have been 55. Now you are eternal. I love you so much.