Journey

I want to you to be happy

I’d really be so lost without God, my friends and family. Thank you. Thank you all.

Single is a blessing. It really is. And I’m not letting society try to convince me otherwise. I need to love myself inside and out. And be able to hold onto those parts of me instead of just giving them away to the next eligible nigga. This world is filled with selfish ass people. And those people have no business in my life.

I only get good morning texts nowadays. Then go a whole day without knowing what’s going on in his world. He just leaves me hanging. What the fuck is this.

Same over caring girl. New guy. Who doesn’t make me feel that special as of late. He did before. Now he puts HIS goals first. I’m not a part of it. I’m just here. As a weekend thing it feels. My hearts in my throat cause idk what to do. He doesn’t see how he makes me feel. I try to communicate it but I loathe repeating myself. I also loathe looking stupid for sticking around when things are going downhill and I’m completely aware of it. I just want that connection. Everyone else seems to find it so seasmlessly but me ? No. They all seem fine and dandy and like they’re different. But they always end up getting distant. Becoming detached. Making me feel high and dry. By myself. With all this love I’m ready to give. But no one around or available for me to give it to. Makes me feel like a fool. Don’t make me feel like a fool.

Feeling empty and neglected. This isn’t how relationships work.

Not all boys are ain’t shit niggas 😍

Take my heart and run with it. God you’re amazing.