Subject's Padded Room

people on this website treat 9/11 like its some celebratory holiday every year and i frankly find that pretty disgusting, so ill probably disappear from the site for a few days until after those posts have made their rounds. i should have some art when i get back though.

i kind of think that imposter syndrome never fully goes away and sitting with that, trying to accept it, and how its impacted my desire to create has been.. grating on me today. there are so many things i want to do- the ideas swirling around in my head for fanart, studies i want to do, personal projects to develop, but upon reflecting on how much art i used to be able to pump out at quality within a matter of days compared to now, something tells me that i cannot reach those heights again. it tells me those days are behind me, my will is weak and my desires are nothing more than fleeting what-ifs now. ill still try, but it's far easier giving up. thank you for reading this if you have.