Is there ever a time where you continuously avoid a topic because it’s too painful to touch base with and just want to stash your emotions in a box and try not to touch it ever again? But then you need to do something about it before it’s too late, but then you’re stuck because you don’t want to be hurt again. I’m not sure if it’s my pride or if its just me trying to cope with how I feel. this is a vent post, please excuse my grammar or my sentences not making sense. I really just need to let this out. idk how to battle with my demons. it’s hard trying to cope with this alone because no one else will understand and no one can help you heal except for yourself. this is such a lonely thing to be stuck in, but I know that if I deal with this on my own, I will understand on how to cope with my emotions. growing up i always suppressed my emotions. i can’t recall if it’s because my family never trained me to understand how to handle emotions or if it’s because I just refused to vent about anything. i don’t ever recall ever having a heart-to-heart conversations with any of my family members. whenever it comes to affection and emotions, i truly dont recall anything regarding having the time to vent to my family or even speak to anyone about my “feelings”. my family was never that type to talk about emotions or “feelings”, so I guess it just caught up to me now and never knew how to cope with my emotions... then I just let it bottle up and not know what to do when i hit rock bottom with my problems. idk what to do anymore. i’m sad. i’m stuck. i’m anxious. my emotions are all over the place. i need help