Stupendousdreamfest

A look into the Life of a First Responder ** Trigger Warning ** Shares visually disturbing content This is the silent story only few have witnessed. Held inside for too long that it has now burned a whole deep into an unknown void, screaming to be told.  Ten years. Doesn’t seem like much, and frankly, it went by too fast while and lasted a lifetime. Being in EMS is like nothing else there is.…

Daily writing promptDescribe your life in an alternate universe.View all responses This thought experiment has always been fascinating to me. The idea that things in life could be different in another reality. Maybe that relationship that ended so abruptly and left with endless unanswered questions in this reality turned into a happy relationship in another reality. Usually, we tend to think…

Daily writing promptDo you have a quote you live your life by or think of often?View all responses “You’re doing the best you can with what you have. Be easy on yourself and have fun.” A recovering habitual people pleaser mixed with low self-esteem and fear of failure I used to hold myself to an impossible standard. What was acceptable for one person, would be unacceptable for myself. While I…

Photo by Yannick Pulver on Unsplash Over the past three and a half years, my content creation has been a whirlwind of confusion. I’ve struggled with trying to find the right niche because everyone says that you NEED a niche! AKA: Pick one thing you could talk about and only focus on that one thing and go all in. So I tried it, obviously, as you can see from the various formats, postings,…

Photo by Mohamed Nohassi on Unsplash The past five years of life have been crazy in every way possible. I used to listen to teachings about manifestations and law of attraction while making a vision board then hoping and wishing for a life I thought I wanted. I was ready to take life by the reins and get everything I wanted. Well, I thought I wanted it. I got my job back, then moved…

Photo by Edrick Krozendijk on Unsplash I’m so fucking sick of this shit! I’ve done everything for you and all you’ve ever done is hurt me and used me for your own financial gain. I’m done and there’s nothing you can do about it. You’re on your own from here on out! Liza’s words to her father two hours before were running on a loop in her mind as she felt trapped in a state of paralysis of her…

I’m so fucking sick of this shit! I’ve done everything for you and all you’ve ever done is hurt me and used me for your own financial gain. I’m done and there’s nothing you can do about it. You’re on your own from here on out! Liza’s words to her father two hours before were running on a loop in her mind as she felt trapped in a state of paralysis of her own making. As she laid motionless on the…

Photo by Mónika Fehér on Unsplash This year I finally decided to go after a dream of mine. To learn how to professionally write. I started, well almost completed because I already have 90 credit hours, towards my Bachelor’s Degree in Creative Writing with a concentration in Fiction. For my final in Creative Writing class I had to write a short story. Since I am really busy with writing and…

My first poem.

Don’t cry. No one wants to see your pain.  You’re so pretty when you smile. Don’t be mad, anger isn’t becoming. Be kind and happy. Always.  Don’t speak truth. No one wants to hear your story. Don’t have strong opinions if you want lots of friends. Don’t stand for something, no one will like you. Wear this, put on a pretty face, be the kind generous woman we want. Be everything for…

The curse of the beauty industry

And How to Overcome the Pursuit of Perfection Photo by Paige Cody on Unsplash Tomorrow morning, walk into the bathroom without makeup or your hair done, look at yourself with morning bed head and your sleepiness, and say to yourself, “you are beautiful, and I love you just as you are!” Make sure that you say it really positively and powerfully. How does it feel? If it felt odd or uncomfortable,…

When politics fails… again

Photo by Joshua Sukoff on Unsplash Over the past six months, I have been oddly glued to Fox News. I do not have cable, YouTube is amazing and shows lots of interesting stores from all types of media sites on the “top stories” and the not so top stories. What struck my interest was the idea of the “red wave.” I must be honest, some part of me was hoping for some large change to happen that would…

tackling health head on!

Photo by Jakayla Toney on Unsplash I’ve written about mental health in blog posts past. My last one being about 3 months ago. I had a rude awakening when my boss informed me that my attitude was becoming a problem. At the time I thought I was doing well and was perfectly happy. What I did not realize was that I was having trouble falling asleep, staying asleep, and sleeping for at least 10 hours…

Another look at anxiety. How we can help turn something most people experience from hate into love.

Photo by Camila Quintero Franco on Unsplash I like most people experience anxiety. Not a big shocker. I used to hate having anxiety. It made me feel completely helpless in a world of complete and utter chaos. For a long time, I did not know how to deal with the hours long, and sometimes days long anxiety and panic attacks. My nervous system was completely depleted and I was always on edge. It…

Why professional business coaches are expensive and what makes them worth your money

Over the years, I have paid for personal coaching and have pitched coaching in sales. When I first began paying for coaching, I was quoted a whopping price of $2000 per month for one on one coaching. I was absolutely floored. I opted for a payment of $250 a month for 3 months and received high quality information. Looking back, I wouldn’t have changed anything because I simply did not have the…

Can tough love be the new self-love?

Photo by Jackson David on Unspalsh What is self-love? The phrase self-love is all over social media. We hear things such as you must learn to love yourself before someone else will. Love yourself first. My personal favorite, treat yo’ self! While there is nothing inherently wrong with these, it misses the other side of true self-love. This topic has taken me a long time to figure out, I am…

Wake the Dreams into Reality

I was watching Doctor Who tonight. It was a Christmas episode from 2014 and spoke about living a dream within a dream.  Holographic universe theory and Simulation theory both state that this universe isn’t truly real. The only thing that has been shown to be real however, is the consciousness that makes up this reality. At the heart of the holographic universe theory, is the idea that everything…