HW: 192 CW: 171 GW:170 UGW: 110

Dont come on my blog if you are trying to recover. ily. stay safe. nourish yourself. you deserve to be healthy more than anything else <3

i want to be smaller so people think im incapable of handling things:/. im rlly mentally fucked up and need some1 to take me seriously:/

not eating food because of not being able to afford it is the most triggering thing, honestly. i feel like i could’ve gone years eating comfortably if society didn’t fuck me over like this, again. im disabled, working, and losing my fucking mmind.

my mom pointed out that I was skinnier now than I used to be again, I haven’t relapsed in a while but it’s the only thing she’s told me she’s proud of in so long

I’m just in the ways that make one afraid of revenge, and evil in the ways that make one afraid of loneliness

i wish my belt stuck out in a clunky way like it does on skinny guys with no hips

list of things besides my ed that make me feel good:

this idea of ana- coaching sounds terrifying. what kind of freaks have fun with one-on-one coaching someone into an ED?

that bpd moment when you’re like “i’m gonna fast myself until someone notices and will NOT stop until they say something”