rant ahead
i don't think ive ever heard anyone talk about how hard it is to get over someone who you thought loved you- like in a non romantic way- like i have to let go of my mother because she's showing manipulation tendencies- i never recognized them before my trip to Washington/oregon (in may of this year) I have made the decision to move to another state with my bf to live with some of his family who actually wants the best for me- its still very sad tho, i feel like im grieving a person, I know shes not actually dead, but like I guess I'm grieving the verson of her that I loved and thought loved me before my perspective was changed- ive honestly been really depressed about it- I finally told her last night I was thinking if moving to another state and she said two comments and ignored me and went back to her phone- which has caused me to fall deeper into depression- i just feel like im not doing anything right, I lost my job due to my health but I still lost it- my mom hasn't talked to me since last night and its been hours- i guess i just feel lost, nothing i do is enough for certain people around me but I care/cared about these people- i just don't know what to do anymore- i feel so lost and sad
