STAY WEIRD

If I could id run back to you in a split second I would. It’s been 5 years…I still feel the same about you. I long our old memories, though they weren’t a lot, they meant everything to me. We were perfect for each other. Yet we didn’t end up together. This sadness will forever be with me, I fear. Why? That’s all I ask. Why couldn’t it be easy? Why didn’t we work out? We didn’t cheat, we keep in touch because I know that we’re afraid to stop talking forever. Everyday that passes I forget more and more your face, your smile, your voice…I don’t want to forget J…please don’t let us forget each other.

Wow it’s been 2 years since I’ve been on tumblr. I’d like to say a lot has changed but it really hasn’t. The boy whom I used to write about has still been hard to replace. In fact, my heart is more broken because guys these days just use women. Where is J you might wonder. He moved on. He starting a new chapter with another girl. It breaks me. But I am left, again, alone picking up the pieces of my broken heart. It is what it is. Sadly, there’s not much I can do.

09.12.22

The letter I never sent. (June 15 2022)

I’m finally letting go. I’m walking away and this time, I’m not looking back. It was a long journey. A journey filled with tears, headaches, anxiety, and sadness. But I’ve finally reached my destination. This journey with you taught me a lot. It taught me how to walk away from toxicity. It taught me to be a strong woman who knows her worth. It taught me that I am good enough and that I don’t deserve to be mistreated by someone so cold and narcissistic. So goodbye. Goodbye forever.