delicate flower ☪

I think that having to say goodbye to your partner is one of the hardest things in the world. It’s one thing for someone to break your heart or abandon you, but those things leave you with no control. The only option is hurt. But when you have to walk away from the person you love in order to be safe and healthy it feels like you have to leave a piece of your heart with them. Knowing you have control over the situation and that you could go right back and take away all the pain but simultaneously knowing deep down you can’t go back is fucking hard. I miss him so much. I don’t want to sleep because I see him in all my dreams. I can’t eat. I can’t get up. I’m having to fall out of love with who I thought was my soulmate, and I’m having to do it by choice. He hates me. He thinks that I’m incapable of love. He burns me with words that I don’t have the capacity to take in so they just sit on my surface eating away at me when all I want to do is heal.