The start of my long battle with Internet addiction

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The start of my long battle with Internet addiction

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Every time you go in a public place and something ISNâT disgusting itâs because somebody cleaned it. Every time you feel comfortable using a public bathroom or sitting at a restaurant table or setting something on a gas station counter or playing on a playground itâs because somebody cleaned it.
Thank you to everyone who cleans the world, especially those who are underpaid and under appreciated.
I worked in a supermarket for 7 years and I don't think I can understate just how much cleaning you had to do for it to look clean (it very often where not in the places you aren't supposed to see)
True for food service, retail establishments, gyms, outdoor areas, schools, religious buildings, office buildings, etc. People usually only notice when a space is NOT clean, meanwhile every time a space is clean itâs only because of the diligent work of janitors, maintenance staff, custodians, parks workers, or volunteers.
I feel like people put so much on the Shane stylist thing about it being about him making or not making decisions and like. I think the book is really clear on what the stylist means. Ilya thinks Shane is âfinally dressing like the millionaire he was.â
Rich celebrities have stylists. You can bet Rose had them. I truly do not think it has anything to do with making decisions or even really about style, except in the secondary level of Shane has no personal style and so the stylist is an immediate upgrade. I think itâs more that Shane hiring a stylist is him stepping into adulthood and deciding to stop being a passenger in his own life
The thing about being single into your late 20s, especially when everyone around you is marrying and having kids, is you feel trapped in a certain kind of suspended adolescence. In traditional patriarchal understanding, adult life starts when you get (heterosexual) married and start having kids. And that this is something that will just sort of happen for you naturally, especially if youâre the man. So before it happens youâre just kinda waiting.
My interpretation of Shane pre-Rose is that heâs stuck in that mode until Rose tells him hey, thatâs not going to happen for you, you know that? You need to stop being in waiting room mode and actually live your life.
And thatâs how I interpret Shane âfinallyâ embracing his millionaire status and chasing after Ilya. It sinks in for him finally heâs not going to wake up and suddenly want Haydenâs life. Heâs got to build the life he wants.
instead of david seeing shane and ilya making out against a window, both of shaneâs parents find them wrapped around each other asleep on the couch. and they were already trying to be quiet out of respect for shaneâs silent retreat, but now theyâre truly speechless. until yuna breathes out an involuntary âoh,â and shane wakes up and sees them and sits up so fast he hits ilya in the face. ilya says âOW shane what the fuck?â and his nose is bleeding and shane holds his face and says âfuck iâm sorry are you okayâ and yuna says âoh let me grab some ice,â and then suddenly shane is holding an ice pack wrapped in a towel to ilyaâs face, still sitting in his lap, and ilya breaks the silence with a slightly muffled âhello. i am ilya.âdavid says, âum. two minutes for roughing?â and shane chokes out, âjesus fucking christâ
Ilya's fluttery hands when he's overwhelmed by Shane (insp by @gloryhollanovjah)

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This sick bleach shirt I made. Something to showcase my undying love for prehistoric cave art.
Some of the bleach burned thru the shirt bc this was my first time bleaching anything ever, but it kinda adds to it.
Shane in the locker room of any given All Star Game after he and Ilya get married and are playing on opposing teams for the weekend: If we don't beat those guys I will actually spend the rest of my life thinking about it. This is your only chance to prove to me that you belong in the NHL. This is not a friendly game, this is a grudge match to the death. I want you all to lock in like you have never fucking locked in--
Meanwhile, Ilya: Woohoo boys let's play some fucking hockey [Timber by Pitbull blasting at full volume]
Cliff Marleau, probably: Hollander's gonna kill you in cold blood, man.
Ilya: Cliff. Cliff let me look in your eyes when I say this. I know. I will enjoy it very much. My night ends the same whether I win or lose, Marley. Anyway. [Song switches to Party Rock Anthem] LET'S MAKE THEM WORK FOR IT BOYS. WOO
Cliff: Dude what is this playlist.
Ilya: It is called 'Prom Night 2013.' Was a good year for me, Marley.
Lil Nas X gives a life update.
being extremely out of the loop especially regarding social media trends and discourse means you often end up learning things only after they've been turned into memes like ten times removed from the original context. for example the first time I ever read the term "girl dinner" it was on a gif of the T-Rex from Jurassic Park eating people so you can imagine the confusion when some time later I stumbled upon posts where people were hating on it and calling it gender essentialist
it's seriously fucked up that our society expects women to spend most of their energy hunting alone and fighting for their food while men can just chill with their herds as they munch on leaves
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shane voice ooga booga that's my man
when Shane takes over and arranges Ilya legs...
ILYA ROZANOV WEEK: DAY FOUR FAVORITE TRAIT  âȘ HIS EMPATHY AND KINDESS đ„șđ
âWhen our childhood homes are chaotic and dangerous, we learn that the way to stay safe is to always be on alert â hypervigilant. Our nervous system never calms down because itâs constantly on the lookout for the next bomb that is going to explode [...] As the show goes on, we will learn that underneath Ilyaâs extremely hard shell is the heart of a squishy teddy bear wrapped in a warm blanket, but it takes YEARS for Shane to see it. When we look at Ilya through the lens of what he learned as he grew up, it makes sense why he behaves the way he does. We can even have empathy for the level of hypervigilance and fear he lives with. I like to lay things out this way because itâs usually a hell of a lot harder to give ourselves that same grace. We have an idea of who we âshouldâ be in our heads, and when we donât live up to that we assume itâs because weâre a failure, a useless waste of space. None of that is true: we are behaving in ways that make complete sense when we understand how our nervous system was trained to respond to our environment.â â Reading Ilya Rozanov through the lens of trauma.
ILYAWEEK DAY 3, favorite quote: heated rivalry, chapter 27

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"You know what's harder than Getting Better? Living Like That" is just the thesis for my whole shit going on right now honestly. You know what's harder than doing my physical therapy? Hurting All The Time. You know what's harder than addressing my gender dysphoria? Hurting All The Time
I'm Doing The Hard Thing and it's *easier* than how I was living before. If you make yourself feel better you will have more energy to spend on Getting Better. Nice inch nails - the upward spiral. Crawl out of your grave Thursday
I'm in a little local cafe and the women behind the counter started griping to each other, "Oh Christ, Stephen's back again," "It's him, is it? I thought he'd stopped coming," "It's definitely him, look, it's bloody Stephen on a Thursday morning," "Do you want me to get rid of him or are you going to do it?" and so I was peering outside, trying to spot this nightmare customer, this pestilence of a person, this pox upon the cafe trade, and then one of the women from behind the counter ran outside, clapping two trays together loudly and yelling "GET OUT OF IT, STEPHEN!" and it turns out that Stephen is an absolutely gigantic fuck-off seagull who hangs around outside, menacing people for crumbs