*‎ ‎ ‎the 𝒈𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒔 life ,

"you know, for someone who claims to hate me — you sure find a whole lot of excuses to talk to me. you can just admit that you're into me, you know."

“it’s  honestly  cute  that  you  think  i’d  ever  want  to  talk  to  you  willingly.  if  it  wasn’t  for  this  little  thing  we're  doing  together,  i’d  be  treating  you  like  the  loser  you  really  are.”

‘ here. ’ the overnight bag held out briskly, the tightness of her voice nothing like the texts sent the previously evening. a weakness — half a bottle of sangria after an especially grating day, nostalgia kicking in to override higher functioning thoughts. to have just gone to bed and ignored the cool, loneliness of the silk sheets or, at the very least, texted someone else. ‘ recital is at eight. if you can't get her hair in the bun or wind up late trying to do it, just bring her to the dance hall so one of the other moms can do it. her allergy medicine is in the bag, she's hyper fixated on nerd clusters. i packed some, but she knows it's for rewards. i told her she can go to the movies with her friends on saturday. ’ facts rattled off in a bored drawl, gaze suddenly landing on them with a direct question. ‘ do you need anything else ? ’

walking / muse a wants muse b and badly. they keep asking what it will take for muse b to give them a chance, for what is needed for them to progress a relationship. muse b is hesitant but muse a keeps saying all the right things. every time they talk muse a is spewing words and words of things to muse b to give in and give their relationship a chance. it's a dance of will they won't they. breathe / muse a and muse b are both in a dead end relationship but neither of them can admit that. neither of them want to be the person to cut it off because they have been together for so long that they aren't sure what life is without the other. muse a is asking for clarity on what muse b wants as muse b is always avoiding difficult conversations as they know it will lead to the end of them as as a couple. shouldn't couldn't wouldn't / muse a is begging for muse b to commit to their newfound relationship. they've been dating and hooking up for a while but muse b is reluctant to put a label on anything. muse a doesn't want to be friends and is making it clear that the only thing they want is commitment or nothing at all. muse b is running laps around the conversation when it comes up but it's down for muse a to force an answer out of muse b. muse b constantly calls muse a up for another hook up but muse a wants more than booty calls. just used music again / muse a is in the music industry and muse b is their on and off ex. every time muse b comes running back to muse a, they end up getting their heart broken again which creates another best selling album. it's a joke in their fandom that they almost thank whoever is hurting them for more and more songs but muse a hates the turmoil they are in with muse b. not only is muse a trying to protect themselves but they are also trying to make sure their fans do not find out who muse b is, as they are a normal person with a private life. muse b knows they are wrong but can't stop themselves from going back constantly.

Matilda (1996) dir. Danny Devito

Solange | Crush (2002) prod. The Neptunes from her album Solo Star

LELA ROCHON Waiting to Exhale, 1995

muse a is a artist , using their work to cope with the pain of addiction . muse b is a devoted fan who becomes enamored with muse a’s music and personality . when they finally meet , the chemistry is undeniable, but muse a’s emotional turmoil threatens to consume them both . muse b confronts the reality that loving muse a might mean getting burned in the process .

NORMANI for ELLE

CHALLENGERS (2024) dir. Luca Guadagnino