okay, so i had a good night sleep and im normal now (i think) i still wanna disappear from her life but i guess now were actually doing it less dramatic,
i also hate my job so baddd, i got a sore throat like 3 days ago and bc im constantly calling people (i work at a thing where i call people from the united states to help them with buying a house) i never get to feel better so now im researching new jobs and shit, at this point i think i will take being paid in usd bc then maybe i will have more money with the conversion rate and maybe that will finally make me save bc its scary changing the usd to the weaker currency but idk i might when i get the macbook
also i impulsive bought one of yeonjuns version for his new album bc it comes with a figurine, it will be worth it, i know it but damn i should stop spending so much
i started an anime yesterday, i bought crunchyroll for 3 months at a cheaper price and im already going to month 2 and i have only rewatched yuri on ice on loop
and soon is july so i will have to get my friend a gift, and i need to get my concert outfit and i havent even made five freebies, i need to actually lock in and do everything now bc if i keep leaving it for later im gonna show up with nothing and im gonna be pissed at past me
thankfully after september everything slows down and my only worry will be saving for an ateez concert in case they come here (pls be in late 2027) & any svt merch that i can justify getting (bc i already got a hoshi carabiner and im going insane even though its only supposed to arrive in like october)
but yeah, now i feel like a hypocrite bc here i am having fun meetings with my coworkers knowing im trying to leave, maybe ill try doing both jobs at the same time for a while just to have more stability for a moment bc i dont really know how do the usd paying remote jobs work and i wanna make sure i will be able to convert money and stuff, idk
also, is it too insane if i decide the 2030 japan trip should also include korea since were gonna be there? i feel like 2030 is not even enough but if i organize myself then it should be doable and even then, my friends love me and love that im taking full control of this but if they see me too burn out they will be okay with waiting bc yeah, idk im so full of doubts these days
but does it actually make a diff whether youre the one converting it or your employer? ππ idk i have no idea how that works i didnt even know it was possible to get paid in anything other than your countrys currency ksks
anywayz youre so real for that except i have that problem w netflix ive watched like 3 films this year and i havent used it for anything else whaT do i pay for every month ππ
but omg youve got this babez only like 3 more months!!!!! also show me the freebies when youre done i wanna seeeeee
also who cares abt your coworkers ππ if youre cool w them you can stay in touch at your new job and if its purely work relationships then you should def leave them behind w that fuckass job of yours lmao
either way i hope youll find something better soon!!!!!!
alsoalso not insane at all id even say its totally reasonable bc id imagine flights from japan to korea are sO much cheaper than flying from home sO like,,, two birds w one stone or however that saying goes LMAO but if you do japan and korea or just japan for now i know you n your friends will have theeee best time ever so dont stress yourself too much youll find a way to make it happen i just know it πββοΈπββοΈ