lost.

I promise to love you: at 6 am when you’re waking to go to work, to school, or whatever road life takes you on; and when you didn’t sleep well, your hair is a mess and your eyes are sleepy. at 8 am when we say goodbye for the day and you’re rushing out the door with a cup of black coffee, after finishing a morning cigarette when your lips taste like caffeine and nicotine. at 3 pm when you’re exhausted from the day and people have worn you out and you feel like sighing, crying, and falling asleep and escaping in afternoon dreams. I will kiss your forehead, and wrap myself in your arms. at 10 pm when you’re heading to bed, even though you won’t sleep for hours and you’ll flip through all the channels tired of dismal newscasts and re-runs. Especially when we become a human knot wrapped up in sheets and kisses at 3 am when loneliness and sadness do not destroy you, but consume you and when you weep without an explanation I’ll kiss your lips, softly and tell you you’re the absolute best. When we talk about life and why winter kills the flowers. I will love you when you grow old, I will love you even after that I will love you if I’m no longer here I will love you I will love you and I will love you. —AKR

I want to make you smile and I want to make you cum. I want to hold your hand and I want to hold your hips down while you’re writhing. I want to make your eyes light up and I want to make them roll in the back of your head. I want to be your reason to wake up and your reason to stay in bed. I want to kiss your wounds and I want you to leave them on my back. I want to play with your hair while you sleep and I want to feel it between my fingers while you are on top of me. I want to memorize the repetition of your breathing and I want to memorize the sporadics of your moaning. I want to see the arch in your grin and I want to feel the arch in your back before you collapse. I want to go out to dinner with you and I want to go down on you. I want to feel you in my heart and I want to feel you inside me. I want to make you laugh and I want to make you scream. I want to still be able to taste you in the morning. I want you in every form.