Square With A Mouth

(—yes i want to ideally do all four rites in this weird little not-twilight, prowl-feels-bad-about-getting-revived universe i made) (the sketches i posted where you can see prowl in the yoketron armor; that version is being rewritten, the concept maybe being saved for later ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡) i really wanna follow up on that one cause im so proud of it, but i also need the spare time to make it as great as i want it to be.

And also because i know (technical skill in) art is a muscle, train it regularly or it’ll wither. I know all you have to do is train it again when you can but i don’t want to go thru that if i don’t have to ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡ Regardless, im about to not have the time cause i have to do a years worth of classes in half the year! If it must be done, it shall be done, but it’s gonna suck a bit.

All of that because, if i may vent for a bit, i found out the “adhd” meds they put me on “makes people calmer” because it actually lessens your blood pressure. Even though i was already dealing with depression and they changed my meds in the first place because they were worried [proper adhd stimulant] was making me sleepy!!! “this pill might be causing unwanted side effects, let’s replace it with a pill that does it on purpose!” GOD.

I’d been taking them for,, about a year? before my auntie found out, i felt like such a fool for just taking it and not asking questions cause i just assumed they knew best. (it’s meant to be taken with an actual stimulus to help tamper hyperactivity if the patient wants to target that. but i needed the opposite) So here I am, an entire term failed and down the drain cause i was so tired and unable to focus cause i didn’t know i was unmedicated and deflated.

Moral of the story; always ask questions and research your meds.

I can do it (gritting teeth and clenching fists) because my shackles are gone and i am awesome

have the speedpaint 🫴✨