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you were the best thing that ever happened to me. you made me the happiest ive ever been in my life. i was always so extremely comfortable with you. the most comfortable ive ever been with anyone in my life. i had a lot of 'firsts' with you. i cant let go of everything we went through and all the fun we had together. i remember asking you out for the first time. we were at the park at night.. it was really dark and we were by the swings. i got on my knee and asked you out and you asked me if i was farting cuz i got on my knee. i remember earlier that night we had so much fun. we were flirting like crazy. we kept acting like we were married while walking to a restaurant. and the first time you came to my house was that day, and my dog was trying to attack you. i remember the next day we had our first kiss. our first real date. i took you to the movies, to insidious chapter 2.. to be exact. we kissed. you asked me if i liked it.. and we both laughed at that. it was hilarious. it was awkward for me when we first started dating.. but when we kissed, i felt something. i dont know what it was. something inside built up and it was like the movies, it felt like fireworks. we then went to a pizza place. and then we went to a dance and had a lot of fun. people made fun of us but we didnt care. thats when i knew i really liked you. you got me out of my comfort zone.. if i danced with anyone else i would have had anxiety about what other people thought of me. but i didnt with you. we hung out every weekend for the next few weeks. you met my family. we were perfect. i told you i loved you.. i remember that moment perfectly. we had only been dating for a few weeks, but i knew that i loved you... i really did. you were always on my mind. always. every single second. i remember the long, meaningful texts we sent to eachother, expressing how much we loved eachother. you cared about me. ive never experienced knowing someone other than someone in my family actually caring about me..you really did. you didnt care about yourself. you put me before almost everything. and ive never experienced caring about someone like i care about you. but thenn, things got really rough. im not going to go full into detail into that.... but things got really rough between us. and this is where it ended up. you're gone. and i want to hold you. laugh with you. kiss you. have actual fun with you. i dont know what to do.. but i dont wanna see you at school. i dont wanna see you happy without me. i just want you to be happy...with me. i dont know how i can get over this. but i need to. because im pretty sure there is no hope in us getting back together. i wish. i really do. i want to spend the rest of my life with you. i thought you were the one for me. i miss you, babe.