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thanks for the kind words, i kind of want to hug you. you are right, and honestly it was the best saturday marathon in quite a while but the show was indeed the corniest ever.

Hey, I’m always good for a hug. It’s human connection. People often forget that we’re a communal species, and we need that physical connection. Sounds like a great day. As long as you enjoyed yourself, that’s what matters in the end. I always kind of... have to frame it, like... at the end of my life, what am I going to remember? I want to look back and feel like I had fun and enjoyed myself and was a good person. That stuff. Watch the fun stuff, eat the cake, buy the...candles or whatever, that you don’t need, but you really want.

I’m a terrible influence, but hey, it’s the truth. And sometimes you just need corny.

I demand apology chocolates! And flowers! But no, I get it. I do. Family’s a different kind of joy, and I’m glad you guys had a great time. We do, definitely, need to have some sort of get together. Stay in, go out, I don’t fucking care. I feel like I’ve been working like a madman for so long, that I’m not even sure I remember how to relax. Life’s good, but I think I’ve just... you know, run myself too thin. I feel like I’ve been going nonstop for two years or so. I’m grateful. Very grateful. But... I’m just tired. Or maybe I’m just old. That’s probably the real reason.

She is a blessing, that is for sure. Oh, thank you, mate. I definitely get it from both parents. The younger boys in my family love everything between superheroes and wrestling, they are charmers as well. They have a ton of energy and can be very silly, but the girls are just classic sugar and spice. I enjoy time with all of them, but I’m a lot closer to my niece because I’ve always been very close to my sisters. I’ll likely speak to her towards the end of the week. That’s your sign to make some time and see them, even a simple text really makes their day. Our industry can be terribly demanding with our time.

I feel like my family is all spice all the time. How many siblings do you have? And I definitely need to make some time for them soon. The past... few years, really... I was going to say months, but it’s really been a solid two or three years of just nonstop working. It’s been a lot. It’s great, don’t get me wrong. But it takes its toll.

rami: i mean it's a pretty low bar, but still.

rami: okay so i went and batched the bit, that was absurd haha. love it tho

rami: [deleted: you look good]

rami: i guess. i'm sure i've had the same thing happen with other people, it's just too much time has passed for me to remember.

rami: i'm SORRY, it's how i be!! i can't help it.

rami: i HOPE in a good way.

Oscar: Yeah, it's in a good way.

rami: it's alright, i get it.

rami: if you're feeling froggy, though, we can readdress it some other time. it'd be good to see you again. the last time was, well... yeah.

rami: everything's fine on my end, at least by my own standards. hah, yeah, i've been getting a lot of wisecracks from friends about those skits. guess that just means they liked 'em :) that's wild, though, i didn't even know

rami: [ deleted: if i had, i would have tried to meet ]

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rami: it felt weird, right? it still feels weird for me when i'm here and i go to the coffee shop we frequented right by [deleted: our] your place alone, and it's been over a year. i dunno how long it's going to take for that kind of stuff to wear off, but... i guess part of me doesn't want it to.

rami: fuck, sorry. guess we're both in the mood to word vomit.

Oscar: Yeah... It'd be good to see you too. Under better circumstances and all that.

Oscar: I'm glad you're doing well. I really am.

Oscar: I just did a little cameo. Last minute thing. It was fun though.

Oscar: You know

Oscar: I don't think I've been back to that shop. Maybe once when I was in a hurry, but... [deleted: It just feels wrong now] I get that.

Oscar: Some days I feel normal and like everything is fine and I've moved on. Other days it's the complete opposite.

Oscar: I guess that's how all that shit goes. [deleted: Just feels harder this time.]

rami: healthier than a lot of things, my dude.

rami: ahh, i see. i uh, i know exactly where you're coming from.

rami: you're /fine/, oscar. hell, if we're being honest, i feel like i could use a drink just about 24/7. so fuck it, go for it, if it takes the edge off. i know how you are when you get stuck in your head like that, i know... how /i/ am. so just... if you need, like

rami: we could

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rami: if you don't want to drink alone, or just be alone in general, i'm in new york. i know i'm probably not the best candidate, but uh, the offer is open.

Oscar: I just...

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Oscar: fuck

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Oscar: I don't know.

Oscar: I don't know if I trust myself drunk around you. haha

Oscar: If I'm honest, there's a part of me that wants nothing more than that...

Oscar: Anyway

rami: true... though i'd argue that your brand of spontaneity and my own are worlds apart. aka yours is much healthier, haha.

rami: everything okay? i appreciate the hello regardless of whether or not you wanna talk about it.

rami: but i'm willing to listen if you do.

Oscar: Definitely debatable if mine is "healthier". But as far as shit goes, yeah... a random text is probably on the healthier side of things.

Oscar: Yeah, things are fine.

Oscar: Punched in the face by nostalgia out of nowhere, I guess. Talking to someone about their niece, and thinking about my own family that I haven't seen in so long, and just

Oscar: I don't know. Just started thinking about the past and the people in my life and

rami: hey yourself.

rami: did you... have a life update for me, or was this just a total shot in the dark?

Oscar: Figured I'd keep you on your toes.

Oscar: I'm nothing if not spontaneous.

To be honest, I think I would have forgotten about some of the things if I had not been cleaning out my closet.  In the long run I know I am a hoarder and if I really wanted the things back I would have asked for them back by now.  But with the being said though, I had to ask how you would get them back if you really wanted them back, if that makes sense.  What you said totally makes sense and I would never let anything that was connected to my family or something that means something to me in which I would let it be borrowed.  

I am Ashley, by the way, it is not useless so do not think like that.  

I’ve definitely had those moments where I’ll suddenly think about something that I used to have. It’s about 50/50 whether I lost it or loaned it to someone. I guess if you really wanted something back, you could always reach out to that person like “Hey, you remember that thing I loaned you?” Even better if it’s someone you had a falling out with, and you can guilt trip them for not returning your stuff. Not that I’ve ever done that. I’d never. Also it’s good to meet you Ashley. I hope you eventually get your stuff back.