My messed up mind

So many things I wish I could go back and change. Do things, not do things, do things better, makes you think how different your life would be if you didn’t do that one thing, or if you did do that one thing. Looking back on my life I can clearly see what subsequent reactions my subconscious and conscious actions have had. I can clearly see what path my life has taken. And even though I’m proud of what I’ve learned and accomplished, I can’t help but have this small crack in the back of my heart. A crack that represents something that I cannot fully comprehend. A crack that I cannot control. A crack that will never heal. Nonetheless, I will continue to do the only thing that makes sense to me; keep doing things that I love, things that make me happy, things that feel right to me. Keep moulding my future, every day progressing in any way that I can. In doing that, all of the opportunities, experiences, and people that my life deserves will gravitate towards me. I just hope god grants me the strength to know the difference between right and wrong and continues to lead me down the path that I’m meant to be on.

I’ve gotten through some tough things in my life. I can get through this.