Ramblings of a Sparrow

Kal and Sy test board. 

Az and Lyl test board 

Atticus and Lee test board

Nola and Rin test board

Sy test character board

The days seem to fade in a mixture of grey scale colors. A Jackson Pollock filled with nothing but black and whites.Day in and day out I face the world in my monochrome, color blind vision. My brain tells me this is normal, it is better than seeing nothing at all. It tells me that I should be happy to at least have the vision without worry of emotions. I don’t bother asking my heart because it has been silent for years, cold and unfeeling. A pattern set in long ago, and I do not fight to break it. 

Familiarity took it’s toll. I got too safe, too comfortable in my grey world, protected and safe. I set my sights on you, and it was as if everything suddenly caught fire. Bright lights, colors I had never experienced, started to move around me, and I took a breath like someone who had been drowning. Gasping, panting, unable to catch my sight, it was my heart that started to beat so loud I could not stand it. Creaking with life, it moved to break out of my chest in it’s entirety. Pain enough to make me double over shot through my body, and I clutched hard, trying to cage my heart but failing in the most decedent ways.